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A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING….7TH INSTALLMENT….CONCERN ABOUT THE FUTURE OF EVERYTHING…

 

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

Well,  where do I start today.
 
 

 

 

 

At this time…it is about 4am,  or 5 am.  I was awakened by this stabbing pain in my back.  As usual I am blog stat obsessed.  So I came down stairs to take my meds..for this “shingles” and I came to the computer to start checking my blog stats.

  Low, for the entire summer,  except when I wrote about Bernie Mack passing away.  I got 519 that day.  I would have perferred a different number.  But I did love Bernie Mack a lot. 

 However, I do not believe that I paid the homage to him that he deserved.  Anyway,  I digress. 

 I have this stabbing pain from shingles… It feels as sharp as it did 5 days ago…before I knew it was shingles…Ugh…Oh, Lord…what do I do?

  I have this ridiculous rash on my stomach and pain.  It comes and goes.  I do not take pain killers. 

 I am not one for pain killers.  Pain killers can destroy the stomach lining,  or cause high blood pressure or worse. 

 So I avoid pain killers at this time.  I am willing to cope …so I just blog…until I get too pain ridden,  or tired or both.

I will stop by the emergency room, or go back to the doctor….before Tuesday…(back to work day) to decide what is the next step with this annoying back pain…from shingles.  UGH….Lord have Mercy!

NEXT TOPIC-

Alaska has more to offer than just  “Northern lights”,  polar bears,  ice,  and wild life….According to John McCain…there is a Vice President up there. 

  I do not know what to think of this.  It is quite smart…but long term committment….long term  history or knowlege of government on the part of  the recent governor of  a  “Bible Belt” gun toting  state….hard to figure…”just fasten your seat belts…it’s gonna be a bumpy ride!!!”

NEXT TOPIC:

REVISITING HURRICANE KATRINA….

I do not understand the so called NO PLAN OF ACTION PLAN…EXCEPT TO EVACUATE EVERYBODY….NO PLAN OF ACTION PLAN OF NOT TO PREPARE A HOLD OVER SITE INCASE THEY CANNOT GET EVERYBODY OUT PLAN????

  Do they always get it wrong I wonder?  I hope this is not playing out like some kind of C-list movie…where the main characters…the victims suffer again…like last time. 

 I remember watching the news on my friends cable TV Weather Channel,  and CNN and how those people were stranded on the roofs of buildings and screaming for just some water! 

  Lord…I hope these elected and state officials,, and city officials have their finger on  the pulse of  this new hurricane Gustav!

NEW TOPIC:

SCHOOL SUPPLIES…..WHO PAYS FOR SCHOOL SUPPLIES FOR MY KID?

Yesterday I was sitting in the park…watching my son play tennis.  I was relating my son’s lovely tennis camp experience…and golf experience of the summer to another mother. 

 She changed the subject to school supplies.  She is NOT a single parent like me.   So she does not get the point of how hard it is to buy anything after the rent is paid. 

 She started telling me to go to Jamaica  Avenue,  Staples,  and Office Max to buy school supplies.  I told her that I have no money at all. 

 She started telling me that  pencils and things were 20 cents etc.  I explained that I was literally sitting there with$5.00 (five dollars in my pocket). 

 I explained that I pay $1600.00 per month for rent….I am a single parent…(which she knows)

 She is not.  She and her husband are home owners and have two kids.

  I have one child…but I care for my mother and son.  I do not receive child support.  So you know what happens to me? 

I feel like back to school is just like CHRISTMAS TIME IN AUGUST AND SEPTEMBER!  Whether a box of crayons or pencils or pens is cheap means nothing.

  I am on a limited income…so it is not PART OF MY BUDGET….I do not have a budget….My income is shot! 

 Once I pay the rent….I have barely enough money to buy food.  I have a nearly 6 foot tall size twelve foot….15 yearold  eating maching in the house. 

My loving oversize  child…needs to eat alot of carbs…or he  can get literally SICK….(READ MY OTHER BLOGS…) 

 So….basically  We  as a family of three…. live  PAY CHECK TO PAY CHECK. 

 (READ MY OTHER BLOGS ON INCOME DISPARITY….THEN YOU WILL UNDERSTAND MY POINT HERE.—ALSO PROBABLY THE REASON FOR THIS STUPID SHINGLES PROBLEM (STRESS RELATED ILLNESS).

—Thus,  my annoyance…when this “woman” who is not struggeling on her own like I am…started pressuring me to get up out of the park and run down to Jamacia Avenue….and get these great sales..

I just started spewing my SAD STORY ABOUT MY LACK OF MONEY….but I did inform her that I would go get my son’s school supplies when I get paid this week. 

 How could she be so unaware that other people do not have the same set of financial circumstances that she has? 

 My family tree does not have any uncles, aunts, cousins,  husband (due to catastrophic disease ),  inlaws( due to total disfunction of my estranged husband’s family)—-Myself, my mother and my son do not possess any family that step in and give any financial assistance what so ever!

  When my son graduated eigth grade going into highschool  …I was the only person   from our family at his graduation!  My mother could not attend because the church building has not been made wheel chair friendly.

  So…if I do not have the cash on hand…or even a credit card(due to financial ruin from my banckruptcy  from my estranged husband)—–WHO PAYS FOR SCHOOL SUPPLIES FOR MY SON??????????????????

——-NOT THE PRESIDENT,  NOT THE GOVERNOR,  NOT THE MAYOR,  –=—ONLY MY PAYCHECK…THAT COMES NEXT WEEK. 

 MY RENT IS PAID ON THE 16TH OF THE MONTH

…SO do the math….life is hard. 

 Yeah,  I can sit here and blog…but guess what…? 

 I have dial up aol system…$9.00 per month.

  School supplies, new shoes,  and clothes cost a whole lot more than that!

So as always…this woman turns her back,  runs to her family because she owns a home across the street from the tennis courts where her child and my child play tennis,  and she continued on her merry way of getting great bargins for ‘BACK TO SCHOOL’ for her kids. 

GOOD FOR HER!!!  But she needs to mind her business when it comes to me….ya know?

NEXT TOPIC:

UNDERSTANDING LIMITATIONS…..You must wonder what my financial problems do to my son? 

  He is not spoiled…that is for sure!  He is not a couch potatoe either! 

WE DO NOT HAVE CABLE EITHER

….BUT MY SON DOES HAVE A TENNIS RACKET.

  My son is learning that his possible route out of the financial troubles of his mother….may teach him to develop a skill that is both employable…and scholarship worthy!  

 My son is hearing how tennis coaches make money….”sometimes too much money”

====he is learning the game of golf….too!((((NYC HAS A FREE PROGRAM OF GOLF FOR KIDS IN DYKER STREET….EXIT #4 OFF THE BELT PARKWAY))))

  So,  money problems…may teach my kid…how to survive with learned skills,  and a good education. 

So is it all bad? 

 Sometimes the best life lessons are hard lessons.

 I wish it did not have to be the case…for my child.

 But I pray for  his strength…and my strength too.

till next blog…

river!

ps….the shingles pain is less and I think I can go back to bed now.

IAM CONCERNED ABOUT THE FUTURE OF THINGS….

 

WHAT DOES THE FUTURE HOLD?--LOST ANGEL

WHAT DOES THE FUTURE HOLD?--LOST ANGEL

When I first heard about Obama I was critical.  But now I am more concerned than ever about the future of things from the republicans.  Sometimes the same old thing is good.  Sometimes too much change is not good. 

 

 

 In the shakey economy and the war torn world that we live in….WHERE WILL THIS ELECTION LAND US ALL…..Once we walk into that house in ‘KANSAS’ will we end up in THE LAND OF OZ???  OR CHAOS!!! 

Are we willing to trust the United States to people who have little or no experience in international global conditions?  A Vice President who literally lives on the “TOP OF THE WORLD”  —cannot be more out of touch than that….I truly am concerned about the future of things.

Inorder to garner votes that Hillary Clinton pushed away by her lack of proper ediquite during the deomcratic push for president….McCain has gone way to the left of center and left the rest of us to swing in the balance…or should I say..he has  thrown the baby out with the bath water!   Listen,  this is not a bate and switch game on the streets of NYC! 

  This is not a snake oil sales man….This is not that movie, “There will be blood”,  with Daniel Day Lewis as the leadingman….this IS REAL  —PEOPLE….THIS IS REAL!

 

Once again,  I truly am concerned about the future of things.

read the blog…MUDFLATS…IT WILL GIVE YOU INSIGHT!

What do I do now?—BLOG ON SHINGLES!!!!

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

I WAS HAVING THIS PAIN.   I HAD THIS THING WHILE I WAS AT THE US OPEN KIDS DAY THIS PAST SATURDAY AND IT GOT SO BAD THAT I THOUGHT IT WAS A KIDNEY STONE.  I KEPT DRINKING WATER AND LAYING DOWN ON SUNDAY.   mY

  THIS  WAS  A  VERY, VERY DEEP PAIN IN MY BACK.  I HAVE BEEN HAVING THIS THING SINCE APRIL OF THIS YEAR.  I WENT TO A DOCTOR.–HIP URGENT CARE.  THEY SAID IT WAS NOTHING.

  I TOLD MY DOCTOR…SHE SAID IT WAS NOTHING.  BOTTOM LINE…..IT TURNED OUT TO BE SHINGLES.  HOW DO I KNOW THAT YOU ASK?

  WELL,  THIS PAIN OPENED OUT ONTO MY STOMACH AS A 3 INCH WIDE AND 7 INCH LONG RASH ON MY ABDOMON.  SCARY….THE DOCTOR TOOK ONE LOOK AT IT AND SAID FLATLY SHINGLES.

   I WAS GIVEN A PERSCRIPTION FOR SHINGLES TO PREVENT INFECTION.  PROBLEM….MY SKIN IS SUPPPPPPEEEERRRR SENSITIVE….AND I HAVE SHOOTING PAINS….ALL THIS WHILE I AM ON VACATION. 

 OH LORD….WHAT TO DO!  WILL I BE ABLE TO FUNCTION?  THIS PAIN MAKES IT DIFFICULT TO WORK AROUND IN  THE HOUSE.  I AM GOING TO STOP THIS LITTLE WRITING PIECE IN THE NEXT FEW MINUTES SO I CAN GO LAY DOWN.  I FEEL VERY TIRED…. exhausted and scared….

 I LOOKED UP SHINGLES ON SHINGLESINFO.COM AND FOUND BASIC INFORMATION.  BUT THE CONCERN IS SKIN INFECTION. 

 WOW!  ALL THIS BECAUSE I HAD CHICKENPOX WHEN I WAS 35 YEARS OLD.  NOW I HAVE A NERVE CONDITION CALLED SHINGLES THAT HAS NO KNOWN CURE OR CONTROL.

 

LET ME KNOW IF YOU HAVE ANY KNOWLEGE OF THIS….SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS OR IDEAS….

THANKS!

 

RIVER!!~~~

QUALIES!!!! QUALIES!!!! US OPEN! QUEENS NEWYORK….15 YEAR OLD AFRICAN AMERICAN YOUNG LADY ON 8/19/08! GREAT! –A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING 6TH INSTALLMENT!

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

I   was told about a young LADY of 15 years old in the US OPEN QUEENS TENNIS CENTER who was in the    “QUALIES”    ““(i.e. qualification rounds)…—it was great!  The young 15 year old black(African American girl…who was representing the United States…first name was Angela!~  Great!  She was playing against a young lady from Portogal named Michelle!

I heard that Angela had been to a tennis camp/highschool in Florida.  She played with the intensity of a pro! 

  The young lady and her opponent played a very strong 6 matches or so.  It was great to watch….except for the   grunts and squeals and     “COME ON(S)!!!!!” the youngs ladies    would yell during   extremely intense moments of their game together!  

  My son who is working on his skills was so excited from watching the game played the ‘right’ way…could not wait to go get a hold of his tennis racket.

  My son has a JAPANESE MADE YONEX! (15 year old Angela played her game with a BABALOT TENNIS RACKET!) 

 My son…. Jay wants a lighter racket now.  He says the Yonex is heavier than most!

My son was inspired to see a young African American the same age as himself playing in the QUALIES….Now my kid has stronger aspirations.  Where will his goals take him?  To College….to the Pros—who knows.?!!!!

  Take out the time and run over to see the US OPEN!  TENNIS IS A PROGRAM THAT THE WHOLE FAMILY CAN GET INVOLVED IN AND IT IS A BEAUTIFUL AREA IN WHICH TO HELP BUILD TEENAGE SELFESTEEM!

IF YOU ARE A PARENT…IT IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL THING…TO SEE YOUR CHILD HAPPY IN AN ACTIVITY THAT BUILDS HIS/OR HER MOTIVATION AND GOALS. 

I MUST HONESTLY TELL YOU THAT MY FAITH IN THE ONE ABOVE HAS INCREASED WHEN I SEE THE WORLD THROUGH THE EYES OF THE CHILD I BROUGHT INTO THIS WORLD.  I SEE THAT AS THE SAY….PLANT THE SEEDS,  WATER THEM AND  WATCH THEM GROW!

GO OUT TODAY AND GATHER YOUR FAMILY AROUND YOU AND SEE THE MIRACLES TAKE PLACE!—-

AND DON’T FORGET……..

 

US OPEN IS HISTORY IN THE MAKING!!!!

Till next

BLOG-

RIVER!!!

GOOD FOR WENDY! CONGRATS….SHE MADE IT! A PLUS…PICKED UP AS A REGULAR TV TALK SHOW!—a LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING 5TH INSTALLMENT AUGUST 20, 2008

 

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

yEP!  Wendy got handed the golden microphone!  She will have her own talk show in 2009!

 

 

I hope the scandal nonsense is fixed or handled by then!  And where is your movie  Ms.  Williams?  November maybe??!!

 

Next!

Barack Obama is 5% behind in the polls!  Whose polls?

Are you telling me that he is not getting votes from the White Democrates? Strange to me that Hillary Clinton has to be placed on the ballot for the Dems…to discuss. 

Personally,  anything like this makes me uncomfortable…how about you?

 

Next!

Martin Lawrence,  John Travolta,  Macy,  and Tim Allen….what a great all star cast in “WILD HOGS!”

Martin Lawrence was great!~  A good look!  I know,  I know….I purchased it! in Holliwood Video!

Great and funny flick indeed!  I loved it!  I keep rewatching it over and over.

I love John Travolta…(did you see one of his earliest movies…called “BOY IN THE PLASTIC BUBBLE?”  jOHN Travolta was a “sleeper”—and a keeper back then!

Tim Allen….I love his Santa Clause!  He is cute in his own little way.  I am glad to see him doing well.

Mr. Macy…also another cutie-patoOtie!  Very silly, yet innocent and childlike in his mannerisms!

Go rent this flick…I AM almost  ready to go out and get a Harly Davidison so I can get on the open road myself..and save gas at the same time!

 NEXT!

CHILD ABUSE….PARENTING  CLASSES…FOR   ALL MOTHERS TO BE …NO MATTER WHAT THE AGE!!!!

The news about the  dead toddler is taking my heart away!  I cannot voice or write my words of what I truly feel about the circumstances that I heard discribed by 1010 Wins today.  But I will say this….can we stop our moments of selfish giddy behavior when we hear that a baby is being born to a family and then run the famiy,  the family friends, to PARENTING CLASSES….PLEEZE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NEXT!

GOLF….AND COLLEGE SCHOLARSHIPS….THINK ABOUT IT ! 

I will fill you in on this later….

IN MY DREAMS

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

TOUCHING is strange.

I run from being touched

Possibly afraid of

my own reaction

Possibly afraid that

it might feel too good

So his hands were gentle

his voice stroked the

side of my neck as

he bent over and whispered

something in my ear

I fought the feeling

and I was angry at

myself…for fighting it

for being committed

to MORAL VALUES

for being committed

to religious beliefs

I will not falter…

I will not fall.

ALTHOUGH TEMPTED

i will not crawl

beneath the power

of the temptation

I will stand with

head held high

And later…I truly will

let out a deep,  full sigh

For yes I was hurt by your blunt

display…I wanted a different,

much different way…

Yet deep within…there

was another spin

My heart said no….no….NO!

Songs of love,  wedding bells,

engagment rings,  buying a new house

the first baby….then the loss of my

husband….

And now this….ONE man now approaches and

he does not want to start a family,

he does not want to get married,

he does not want that first baby

he does not and will not buy me

and engagement ring.

He simply wants my

body….or what

he perceives is my body

from what he can see through

my clothes.

My feelings are hurt…my soul is burnt

my heart bleeds…for what I lost.

We, my husband and I would

have made love all night

and then the sun would catch

us laying in each others arms and

talking about the day and our lives together…

My husband would arise and  shower.

I would lay and slumber longer

I would be rosed by bacon and eggs that

my husband would serve

me in bed

Now….our marriage,  our

relationship is DEAD—

DEAD…due to catastrophic disease…

Lost is my lover, my best friend…my husband…

and NOw I ponder..

the value of my life…

under this new world order…

do I allow myself

to be short changed

and live life according to

limitations of  feeling used,

and undervalued?

In my dreams…I experience

intimacy…but not hurt feelings

In my dreams… I remember my

true love…my lost love…My husband….now

gone….So

that human touch,  that slight embrace, around my

neck,  that whisper….

has awoken a spirit of

urgency…but

yet i with draw and

remember  you….

IN MY DREAMS.

~~~fini

riveroflifelisajoy

A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING–4TH INSTALLMENT

 

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

Well, I have heard it all,  and seen it all now!  Have we reversed back to the Jim Crow days again?

What is this with the book on Obama?  Why are people stating that he is muslim.  Is it a crime to be a muslim?  Where have the rights, and values of individuals decreased to?  How can someone smear a presidencial candate to such a level. 

 If Barak Obama did not know he was in the furnance of racism…he definitely knows it now. —They are throwing stones and accusations.  This is being done because they want power in their hands so that they can do what they want. 

 They want everybody to believe that they are the good guys.  And it would appear that as soon as they get “in” they will turn on us as well.  This is a difficult world that we live in. These people who are writing this stuff do not care about Obama’s wife,  or children. 

They do not care about the effect of this evil campaign on  his American Born and raised children.  I can see that Barak has strong family values…I hope that he talks openly with his daughters,  and of course they know the truth of who they are and who their mother and father are. 

 But it has got to be difficult to be so young and hear suck terrible things about one’s father….especially in such a public way.  You do not have to like Obama….but think about his children for a moment. 

Think about his White grandparents and his half sister.  What did these people do to deserve this assult on their personal beliefs and values?  Is it a crime to be an Mix-race European/Afro American and  be in the running for president of the United States?!!!

Let us move forward..according to  1010 wins today 8/16/08..a pigeon was found covered in purple paint walking around in a park yesterday in Queens  New York.  Why would anyone want to harm an animal is so beyond me.  It is so very sad.

A baby was shaken to death yesterday—also reported by 1010wins news this morning.  Another news story that I cannot stomach very well.  Does anyone get a talk before they take these newborn babies home?  When I gave birth to my son, I was told to treat him like a king!  Not to allow him to control me…but that he was a little king in the house hold.  Give him love and affection.  Babies cry…that is normal. 

 Where is this logic that if you shake a child harshly that it will stop crying?  This hurts my heart so deeply.  Oh,  it is becoming too, too much.  The human baby should be placed on the endangered species. 

 We need to place all expectant parents in parenting schools…I mean it.  Proper care and maintance of new borns and what to expect as the child matures and grows.  Also the topic on what constitutes CHILD ABUSE.  Educate people and then that might decrease some of these very dangerous and fatal actions by relatives and parents.

Yesterday  I traveled up to Nyack.  I had to run to my college.  Nyack College.  I went across the Tappanzee Bridge.  Strange bridge…really,  it was rather odd.  It was more like a road across the water…with a little bump, or hump of a bridge formation that they made as the “bridge” part.  Nyack College has a GREAT AND EXCELLENT PROGRAM…for ADULTS who want to complete their education.  I had 69 credits.  They accepted my credits and then placed me in their program for ADULT AND CONTINUING EDUCATION/DISTANCE EDUCATION.  The college professors drive all the way from their residence in Weshchester,  and come to Queens or Longlsland to teach  and great topic.  ORGANIZATIONAL MANAGMENT.  I give more detail in another blog later…but the course includes a thesis of about 100 pages or more,  business ethics, and detailed writing and reports that is completed in 14 months!  The College also has a program for Masters Degree as well.  I write give more detail later..But go online to www.nyack.org if you want to know more!  I loved every bit of the 2x a week course work!  Great professors and Great classroom experience as well!

I got lost trying to come back from Nyack.  I ended up in Woodbury Commons.  Woodbury Commons looked very nice indeed.  I could not stay….I had to cash, so no shopping for me.  I met a nice lady at the information booth who gave me the directions back home. 

 Please don’t ask why I could not figure my way out….I never said I was that intelligent.  I left home at around 1:30 yesterday and did not walk back into my house until 10:00.  Traffic was terrible due to the rain, and storms.  But I am home. Thank the Lord!  I think my son Jay Jewelz enjoyed the ride…even though we kept arguing about whose fault it was that we got lost…but we talked and laughed our way through it!

As soon as we got home we had pizza with my Mom and just thanked the Good Lord that we made it home safely in all that rain.!

See ya there!

~~~~riveroflifelisajoy!