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IN MY DREAMS

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

TOUCHING is strange.

I run from being touched

Possibly afraid of

my own reaction

Possibly afraid that

it might feel too good

So his hands were gentle

his voice stroked the

side of my neck as

he bent over and whispered

something in my ear

I fought the feeling

and I was angry at

myself…for fighting it

for being committed

to MORAL VALUES

for being committed

to religious beliefs

I will not falter…

I will not fall.

ALTHOUGH TEMPTED

i will not crawl

beneath the power

of the temptation

I will stand with

head held high

And later…I truly will

let out a deep,  full sigh

For yes I was hurt by your blunt

display…I wanted a different,

much different way…

Yet deep within…there

was another spin

My heart said no….no….NO!

Songs of love,  wedding bells,

engagment rings,  buying a new house

the first baby….then the loss of my

husband….

And now this….ONE man now approaches and

he does not want to start a family,

he does not want to get married,

he does not want that first baby

he does not and will not buy me

and engagement ring.

He simply wants my

body….or what

he perceives is my body

from what he can see through

my clothes.

My feelings are hurt…my soul is burnt

my heart bleeds…for what I lost.

We, my husband and I would

have made love all night

and then the sun would catch

us laying in each others arms and

talking about the day and our lives together…

My husband would arise and  shower.

I would lay and slumber longer

I would be rosed by bacon and eggs that

my husband would serve

me in bed

Now….our marriage,  our

relationship is DEAD—

DEAD…due to catastrophic disease…

Lost is my lover, my best friend…my husband…

and NOw I ponder..

the value of my life…

under this new world order…

do I allow myself

to be short changed

and live life according to

limitations of  feeling used,

and undervalued?

In my dreams…I experience

intimacy…but not hurt feelings

In my dreams… I remember my

true love…my lost love…My husband….now

gone….So

that human touch,  that slight embrace, around my

neck,  that whisper….

has awoken a spirit of

urgency…but

yet i with draw and

remember  you….

IN MY DREAMS.

~~~fini

riveroflifelisajoy

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