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SLAVERY IN AMERICA: RECENT APOLOGIES AND THE DEBATE ON REPARATIONS

I am  a child of slaves.  I am a child of first generation black Americans to have their own New York City Home.  I am a child of a African American family to be the first  to go to college.  I am a mother of a black child who is first generation to play tennis as his major sport of skill. 

 I am African American wife of  a skizophrenic, (who has been missing for ten years).  I am an African American wife of a African American male skizphonprenic- who has not provided child support for ten years due to his missing status and the RULES that govern the Social Security Administration.

  I am an African American who can not get HEAP HELP (GOVERNMENTAL FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE FOR UTILITY BILLS i.e. Gas and Electric) because the government states that SINGLE PARENT STATUS…EARNING $43,000.00 PER YEAR, PAYING $1600.00 for 3 bedroom apartment in New York City,  paying full utilties of building,  $158.00 per month car insurance,  extremely high milk, juice, fruit, meat,  vegetables,  personal care products,  clothing,  medical needs insurances,  life insurances on my self valued at over $100,00.00 disability insurances on myself (especially since my missing sick husband left me responsible for my child),  catastrophic disease insurances on my self.

Having detailed my financial condition as a 48 yearold African American Daughter of slave ancestors….It would appear that I have the same if not similar problems as my white counter part Americans in some cases. 

 However,  what makes me believe that I do deserve a form if not actual SLAVE REPARATION–is that I would have completed COLLEGE many years ago—if it had not been for BEOG/ PELL AND TAP GRANTS BEING DENIED!  

Those grants were denied me when I was 21 years old!  I had just been accepted into CBS Television Internship Program through Queens College in the Journalism department.  I was registering for my course that was applied to the internship and was told by the college that PELL GRANTS,  BEOG AND TAP Aide had been denied to me because I had used up all of my POINTS! 

 I did not financial aide available!!!  I had ignorantly retaken courses that I had failed  and then passed.  However,  my re-registering for those courses had caused me to use up my points. 

 My Academic Counselor named  Barbara Blank  did not guide me properly,  —I am truly not clear on how this terrible mistake occured.

  Whatever caused this terrible error…caused me to have to leave college after I had already completed 61 credits!!!! 

 The financial aide counselor had discussed the problem with my mother….my African American mother….another daughter of ancestral slaves….My mother whose parents had not been educated higher than elementary school in Virgina (Drakes Branch,  and Farmville Virgina to be exact). 

 My mother had an option explained to her by the financial aide counselor….”Refinance your house so that your daughter could finish college.”

  My mother, descendant of slaves flatly stated,” NO! I am not wasting my mortgage on that!”

  My sister, who did not complete college and who was 6 years older than me– had been whispering into my mother’s ears heavily.

  She did not want me to complete college…because she was jealous and she told my mother  that I becoming a CAREER COLLEGE STUDENT….LEARNING BUT NEVER GRADUATING.

  I was only 21 years  old at that time.  Also CBS television internship supervisor in charge of my internship had promised me a great future!  I had to compete against other people—HUNDREDS! .. inorder to get accepted into that internship!

  I had made an impression on the CBS Internship program…but now!  My financial aide points had run out from Pell Grant,  BEOG,  and TAP were no longer funding my education.

  I could not work to make enough money to pay for those classes,–tuition was a mere $900.00 back then….but it was still to high for a full time college student. 

The final outcome is this….I left college, unable to pay for it. 

 My mother,  daughter of Slave ancestry could not see the benefit of helping me to complete my education because her thinking back then was limited  and poisoned by my sister’s jealousy. 

 Thus  I left college, severly let down….my mother,  daughter of slaves told me to just get a job….My mother could not understand the circumstances that would notw shape my life and her’s forever!

I went to a business school,  I went to Taylor Business Institute!  I learned secretarial skills. ((question–why was I able to get a loan for a trade school and not a college???))

 I was hired by a temp agency and began the long road back to college.  I began paying for my classes one at a time….I was eventually hired full time by J. Michael Bloom Talent Agency. 

 My big mistake was that I got married.  The marriage did not prevent me from being educated…but I began to rearrange my goals around the marriage.  My husband and I did accomplish some goals like buying a house,  and having  a child. 

 My African American husband wanted me to complete college…but coming full circle my husband suffered catastrophic severe skizphrenia and left me with bankruptcy,loss of a home to foreclosure,  and a child to raise.

  I am currently working on a job for the past 19 years that has abosultely NOTHING to do with my original college related goals.  The job  helps pay for food, and rent–barely–. 

 I struggle due to the previous explained debts that I worry about daily. 

 HIND sight is not twenty-twenty for me. 

 I knew that my level of success would not be fulfilled if I could not complete that INTERNSHIP AT CBS AND REGISTER FOR MY CLASSES WHEN I WAS 21 YEARS OLD. 

 However,  not having an educated family,  that would understand the value of an education,  and the financial scarifices required to accomplish that goal…thus here I sit today….BLOGGING…out my frustration. 

My actual, blogging is healthy for me…but it cannot replace the years of economic success I have not ever experienced,  education,  and opportunities that I have missed out on.

  Blogging cannot give me financial power to help cover the debts that HEAP will not help me to pay …because I am just $50 or more dollars over their limit of assistance for a single parent with only 1 (one) child.

  I have been told that I have to have more children to be eligible to receive government assistance. 

The  goal in this article is to explain why SLAVE REPARATIONS would have helped a person like myself. 

 I have been working ever since I had to leave college. 

 Understand that I only left college because I had no money to pay for tuition.  They would not allow me to take a loan….my mother would not refinance her home (which she actually did refinance some years later…so she could make a basment apartment for rental purposes)—I have always pushed to further my education,  I recently partly completed a program NYACK Adult Continuing education–called ORGANIZATIONAL MANAGMENT…I have to pay off about $600.00 and complete three essays to receive my Bachaelor of Science in Organizational Managament. 

 I should have done this two years ago.  So what is the hold up you ask?  I have my child who has been suffering with seizure disorder increasingly over the past two years,  and I also am caring for my mother who has become an invalid and stroke victim over the past 4 years. 

So here I sit.   I am gearing up to complete my 3 essays in the next few weeks and receive my full credit and I can graduate in November of this year. 

I have traveled a long road.  I know there are many others who have traveled a long road as well.

  Do I believe that educational reparations would have helped me….OF COURSE IT WOULD HAVE HELPED ME! 

 My educational goals would not have been tied to my mother’s personal finances..and I would have been able to complete the internship at CBS in Journalism. 

What type of EDUCATIONAL REPARATIONS would I have used you might ask?  Here is my concept of the best form of education reparations for children of ancestral African American Slaves:

  • SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE AND RECEIVE GED/HIGHSCHOOL DIPLOMA
  • MAINTAIN PASSING GRADES IN COLLEGE
  • TAKE REMEDIAL COURSES TO IMPROVE ACADEMICS AND SUCCESSFULLY PASS ALL REMEDIAL COURSES
  • NO—-TERM LIMITS ON EDUCATION
  • STUDENTS MUST ENROLL IN COLLEGE CONSEQUTIVELY—UNLESS EMERGENCY IN FAMILY,  MEDICAL PROBLEMS, FINANCIAL CIRCUMSTANCES TO BE EVALUATED BY REPARATIONS COMMITTEE ON ACADEMIC REPARATIONS
  • SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE BACHELOR OF any ACCREDITED COLLEGE,  IVY LEAGUE,  CITY,  STATE COLLEGE PROGRAM
  • SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE ANY INTERNSHIP PROGRAM
  • SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE ANY TRADE PROGRAM:  ELECTRICAL, PLUMBING, TRUCKING, NURSING, CAR REPAIR AND DESIGN, ETC.,
  • SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE PROGRAMS AND HAVE ACADEMIC GOALS,  AND JOB BOOKLET ON PERSONAL/INDIVIDUAL ASSESEMENT, and RESUME– COMPLETED AT THE END OF EACH SEMESTER.
  • MAINTAIN ATLEAST A — C– AVERAGE…WITH  EXPLANATION OF GRADES AND RESTRAINTS  AND DETAILING PROBLEMS RELATED TO COMPLETION OF ACADEMIC GOALS TO BE EVALUATED DIRECTLY BY ACADEMIC REPARATIONS COMMITTEE.
  • FULL TUITION PAYMENT FOR ALL AFRCIAN AMERICAN SLAVE DECENDANTS
  • FULL TUTITION FOR BACHELOR,  MASTERS PROGRAMS.
  • FULL TUTITION PAID FOR DOCTORATE AFTER PROVIDING 4OOO HOURS OF MENTORING,  PROJECT GIVE BACK, AND EACH ONE TEACH ONE PROGRAMS FOR SUMMER YOUTH AND YOUNG MOTHER PROGRAMS.
  • FULL TUTITION PAYMENTS FOR 2ND BACHELOR DEGREE FOR 7000 HOURS OF MENTORING, PROJECT GIVE BACK, AND EACH ONE TEACH ONE PROGRAMS TO BE DEVELOPED BY THE AFRICAN AMERICAN REPARATIONS PROGRAM.  
  • ALL CANDIDATES MUST SUBMITT DOCUMENTED PROOF OF 3000 HOUR AND 7000 HOUR GIVE BACK AND MENTORING PROGRAMS INORDER TO BE ELIGIBLE  FOR DOCTORATE PROGRAMS AND 2ND DEGREE PROGRAMS.
  • ALL GRADUATES ARE REQUIRED TO GIVE 100 HOURS YEARLY TO TALKS AT ELEMENTARY EDUCATION,  JUNIOR HIGHSCHOOL EDUCATION, HIGHSCHOOL EDUCATION,  AND  COLLEGE PROGRAMS FOR MENTORING AND PASSING ON THE LEGACY OF THE BENEFITS OF EDCUATION AND TAKING THE RESPONSIBILITY OF REPARATIONS AND BECOMING SUCCESSFUL IN ATTAINING ACADEMIC GOALS THAT ARE A STANDARD OF EXCELLENCE IN THE AFRiCAN AMERICAN SLAVE DESCENDANTS.

This is my concept of proper reparations.  I would abide by these rules so that I could have the opportunities to pass on the goals and future that keep America growing and great. 

We as a American Citizens do not need a hand out!  We need a hand UP! Help me to educate myself so that I can help continue the legacy of Pride in the United States as a Super Power in the World.  Help me to educate myself  so that I can give back to the generations to come.

As it stands right now…I can only give this blogg!!!!

  I could do so much more if my education was free…but with RESPONSIBILTY AND DEFINITELY STRINGS ATTACHED.  The type of strings attached will cause success in the future decendants of slaves…but those decendants would eventually be called desendants of SUCCESSFULL AFRICAN AMERICANS WHO HAVE MENTORED, AND GAVE BACK, THEREBY ASSISTING THE UNITED STATES TO MAINTAIN ITS ECONOMIC STRENGTH,  EDUCATIONAL POWER,  LITERACY,  AND GROWTH IN THE WORLD. 

WITH EDUCATION….COMES AN EMPOWERED WORKFORCE THAT CAN STRENGTHEN THE ECONOMY…..CRIME BASED ON ECNOMICS WILL GO DOWN IN MINORITY COMMUNITIES,  BLACK MALES WILL BE INSPIRED TO GATHER RESOURCES AND BECOME MORE SUCCESSFUL AND STRONG.  YOUNG WOMEN WILL GATHER RESOURCES AND BECOME MORE SUCCESSFUL AND STRONG.

The program of reparations needs to be looked at. 

 It may take many years for it to come about. 

 MOst likely not in my life time,  or even my child’s  life time. 

 But the concept does need to be addressed. 

 Maybe my concepts are not all acceptable… there may be better methods of ACADEMIC REPARATIONS.

IN CONCLUSION:

DO NOT GIVE ME THE FORTY ACRES AND AN MULE….

I WANT A FREE….RESPONSIBILITY ACADEMIC BASED REPARATION FOR DESCENDANTS OF AFRICAN SLAVES. 

(((JOBS WILL COME WITH AN EDUCATED WORK FORCE!!!))) 

 NOTE…MANY EUROPEAN COUNTRIES MAKE EDCUATION FREE  FOR ALL!!!!

REPARATIONS ON AN ACADEMIC LEVEL WILL IMPROVE  THE QUALITY OF LIFE AND ECONOMIC STANDING OF THE UNITED STATES AS A SUPER POWER  AND ALSOIN THE GLOBAL ECONOMY AS WELL.

“`RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY

THE FORCE AND WILL OF CREATION!

  

 

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

Who am I you ask?

What are my abilities you wonder.

 

 

I have not come this far  by your

direction,  or by your power.

The higher authority that breathed

life into my frame,  who

very much ordained my name

decided…and so it was!

Perception is sometimes powered by

STEROTYPE!

Misconception is sometimes powered

by dislike!

Who am I you ask….

I am the force and the will of creation…

I am the power of the volcano’s eruption

molten lava rolling and burning a path through

everything!

A tornado in all of its thoughtless,  callous chaos….twirling

in beauty and destruction without apparent destination, or goals…

intent on devastation…yet in simplistic natural beauty powered by an unseen

machine and engine.

A hurricane large and moving in speeds of one hundred mile an hour winds, ripping trees from their root beds and tossing homes and cars like children’s toys…yet again powered by an unseen mechanical engine of such power as to draw all living and dead into its path.

So who am I you ask?

Incased in this flesh I am mortal,  a woman,  an individual with thoughts,  feelings and ideas.

Yet you perceive me weak,  you know….first impressions and all….

But oh,  do not be deceived….just as you are ….I see through to your very soul….

we are both

the force and will of creation!

Just as I have and you have the ability to be creative,  so do I ….just as you have the ability to be destructive so do I.

I chose life…

what do you choose?

Within me reigns the absolute power to choose—to be the FORCE AND WILL OF CREATION!

MADELINE GERTRUDE..PROMOTIONAL POST….WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO MOTHER AFRICA…BBC ARTICLE AND POLITICAL REFLECTIONS****WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO MOTHER AFRICA?????

 

 

PLEASE READ THIS ARTICLE FROM THE BBC REGARDING MUGABE.  IT IS EYE OPENING.  THEN READ MY REACTION TO IT  AND GLOBAL POLITICS.  ~~~~RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY

 

No regrets’ for Mugabe opponents

As Zimbabwe’s President Robert Mugabe fights to maintain his grip on power, there are fears of a new wave of violence against his opponents. Orla Guerin reports from Zimbabwe, despite a ban on the BBC.

Injured opposition supporter
Mugabe’s opponents fear renewed violence against them

It was the shoes that caught my eye.

The man wearing them had served me lunch. He was friendly and polite. His shirt and trousers were spotlessly clean and freshly pressed.

But when he brought my bill, his footwear gave him away. I could see his toes poking out through a large hole between the sole and the top of the shoe.

The bill came to $20 (£10) – in Zimbabwe dollars that is more than four billion.

The Zimbabwean currency has become so worthless, that you can find it littering the streets

For the waiter, that probably would have been about three months’ take-home pay.

Wondering how many billions it would take to buy new shoes, I left a large tip.

When he saw the amount, he raised his hand to his heart in thanks.

The Zimbabwean currency has become so worthless, that you can find it littering the streets.

Five-hundred-thousand-dollar notes lie in the dirt. Nobody bothers to pick them up.

A friend in Zimbabwe went shopping for a few gifts this week. When she selected them, in the morning, the bill came to Z$17bn.

Three hours later, when she came back to pick them up, the price had risen to Z$21bn.

Dying regime?

During my stay I met a tour guide, who had worked abroad for years. He came home in 2005, when the economy was already in freefall.

“Why come back then?” I asked.

“To help bring about change,” he said.

He told me, as did many Zimbabweans, that the Mugabe era was coming to an end, though he was not sure how.

“Our old man is on the way out,” he said. “It’s the last kick of a dying horse.”

Zimbabwe graphic

He spoke firmly but quietly, with a quick glance over his shoulder to see who was about.

We talked over dinner, a three-course meal – soup, chicken and dessert. He ate slowly and carefully.

“An ordinary man could spend a year without eating a meal like this,” he said.

The same man told me the churches are a lot fuller these days, not because a suffering nation is finding consolation in religion, but because church groups can sometimes help people find food, or arrange decent burial.

Many in Zimbabwe cannot afford the cost of dying.

At a small cemetery, where the grasses grew higher than the tombstones, we met a group of young men digging a grave.

They were not gravediggers, this was a do-it-yourself funeral.

“We are burying our sister,” one told me.

“She had been sick for a while.”

The deceased was 37 years old.

Dying in your 30s is typical these days. Life expectancy in Zimbabwe is among the lowest in the world.

Police checkpoints

Travelling through the country can be an eerie experience. We had the open road all to ourselves for hours.

The only distraction along the way was the occasional roadblock, usually manned by relaxed police.

Zimbabwe election posters
Some voters may be too scared to vote in a new election

With BBC News banned in Zimbabwe, we were running the risk of arrest.

But we managed to pass unnoticed, and many ordinary Zimbabweans ran the much greater risk of agreeing to speak to us and tell us their stories.

They could expect harsh treatment from the authorities if they were caught.

At a remote rural homestead, we were welcomed by a village elder who was no stranger to President Mugabe’s wrath.

In the past, supporting the opposition MDC had cost him dearly.

His home was burned down and his wife was beaten.

The fields around the homestead were full of withered corn and the grain stores were empty, but our host wanted to kill a chicken and prepare a meal for us.

We thanked him, but said we could not accept. Later that night we found the dead chicken in the back of our truck.

Some of those we met were putting their hope in the international community.

“They won’t let this continue,” one man said.

“They’ll send in the UN.”

Poll fears

But Robert Mugabe knows there will be no-one coming to stop the beatings and the killings by his henchmen.

If a second round of voting comes, many may be too afraid to go back to the polls.

We are ready to sacrifice our lives to make things better for our children
Opposition supporter in hiding

“Sadly it won’t be possible to vote again,” one opposition supporter told me, sounding weary.

Others may be unable to risk coming out of hiding.

I met an MDC activist who was on the run, following a brutal beating.

We spoke for just a few minutes. He was too afraid to stay longer.

He had had no contact with family or friends for more than six weeks.

“If they hear my voice on the radio,” he said, “they’ll know I’m alive.”

I asked what he thought would happen, if he was caught again.

“It won’t be torture then,” he said. “It will definitely be death.

“But if needs be, we are ready to sacrifice our lives to make things better for our children. I have no regrets.”

From Our Own Correspondent was broadcast on Saturday, 10 May, 2008 at 1130 BST on BBC Radio 4. Please check the programme schedules for World Service transmission times.

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When my son was in 2nd or 3rd grade he was given a school fair project to do.  The project was to take  the African Nation of Zimbabwe and give the basic geographical  information on it and then historical information, the natural resources the country is known for, and the population etc., and then put that into an report.

  I,  being his mother,  having learned from college to go to the source of the information called the Consolit of the nation of Zimbabwe.  I heard the voice of very soft spoken female answer the telephone in the Zimbabwe consulit and  she told me that she would leave me some large posters and current information about Zimbabwe at the door at 5:00 pm. 

 I rushed to the Manhattan location and found them rolled up and propped up  against the metal door.  I was so excited I could not wait to open them.  The pictures and travel information, and historical information were more current than anything my son could have received in the library in Queens.

  So my son had gigantic glossy posters of Zimbabwe’s natural resources!  There were pictures of smiling dark skinned and brown skinned people in colorful clothes; there were pictures of forests;  there was even a series of  fabulous water falls that rivaled our famed Niagra falls.

  I had spoken to a Nigerian Teacher friend who told me to stop being so ignorant about the continent of Africa and stop believing all of the sterotypes about black people running around in the jungle! He told me that the cities of Africa were more beautiful than their American Counterparts.  He told me that African’s were very educated people,  that they loved education more than anything else.

   My African Nigerian friend made me feel very stupid and uninformed about the real world around me.  So when I got the glossy pictures about Zimbabwe,  I thought I was on the road to self awareness, and true understanding of my SO-CALLED  mother land…of which I am named after….aka –AFRCIAN AMERICAN– 

 How could I be called African American and all I know about the continent is the sterotypes, and historical data on Egypt,  and all other countries.  I have had this romantic view of Egypt…and who I was supposed to be in correalation to this place or that in Africa. 

 Now, though,  I am saddened by the sickness that seems to overtake most 3rd world countries…..rich with natural resources, yet devastated by political confusion and greed from other outside influences and rift with politicians or military people who want ALL OF THE MONEY FOR THEMSELVES and let their countries dry up and die..

.Obviously, they cannot see that they are setting the stage for more ruthless individuals and counties to over run and eventually take over where the politicians left off and then take a foot hold like hideous ticks and suck the country dry. 

 The children and innocent people of these African Countries do not even have a chance of survival.  But the powers that be,  the ones seeking the gold,  oil, diamonds in those rich, yet poor regions will stop at nothing to gain their control…it would seem. 

 Yet, even with what I am writing,  I am still very ignorant on the truth of who the real predators,  and prey are in the African Continents and its countries…of which I am being told that I “come from.”   I cannot even afford a plane ticket to visit Africa….I will probably never have the finances to go there….but if I do visit….what would I find there?  

 A group of brown, or black skinned people welcoming me home?   In the movie,  BLOOD DIAMOND,  a military or gorilla soldier was attacking some innocent towns people and using politics as a reason and he told one man, “What do you want?   LOng  Sleeve or Short Sleeve? 

 He said this to the man as they hacked off his left arm.  This was done to send a message!  Oh, but what a message they sent to me!

   Where is the Africa that I am supposed to wish to return back to after 200 or more years of oppression from slavery?  It is rift with politics more severe in some cases than has been allowed over here…if you understand my meaning.

So that is why I placed this article here in my Mom’s blog on Mother’s day. 

WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MOTHER AFRICA?   HER CHILDREN WANT TO COME HOME…YET SHE,  MOTHER AFRICA IS BEING HELD HOSTAGE IN HER OWN HOME!

~~~~~RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY