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WHY DID My Son Stop Drinking Milk?

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My Boy

I  have  tears in my eyes as  I listen to Ave Maria and I write this blog. I am crying because it is so beautiful.  It is not the traditional Ave Maria. I found it on Youtube. But the second reason I am crying while I write this  blog is that My  22 soon to be 23 year old (March 30, 2016) son Stopped drinking milk actually Friday Night.  I was shocked when he  brought home Almond milk.

I said to him, Why did you buy that? He said, I saw what they do to COWS.  I immediately knew when he said that that he saw something  HORRIBLE on the internet about  the abuses  suffered by  our  wonderful COWS that provide life saving calcium and nutrition. Although some vegans might beg to differ.

Nonetheless COW MILK has  been a staple in the United States as far back as most people can remember.  We worry about  Homogenized milk and  cleaning the bacteria from it.  But  do we  ever  concern our  thoughts  with the LONG  HOURS  COWS are hooked up to those  MILKING MACHINES.

Do we ever consider that  those  COWS are not allowed to walk freely?  Do we  ever  think about that the milk that they provide is  really for their  own little heifer that they never  conceive and never  give birth to.  Do we  think about  the  COWS—————–

being SLAUGHTERED/murdered when they  has  been used  to the  final part of  its SHORT SHORT LIFE?  I did not have to see the video that my son saw to understand  what  he  meant.

What makes me  cry is  so many things,  so many feelings,  so many concepts and arguments in my head.

First of all my son touched my heart deeply because  he has come to be a man and  take a stand for what  he  believes no matter what the cost.  My son stopped drinking  milk because he  saw the importance in  to seeing  a wrong in the world around him and doing something about it.

Even if all he  could  do in some  small  way —was to STOP DRINKING MILK—I do not know  if even one  COW would be saved by my  son’s Selfless Actions  but  it touched my heart to see the my  SON has  truly understood how my  life  and  actions  have always been to protect  the HELPLESS,  THE LOST,  THE LONELY,  THE HURT , THE HARMED,  whether it be  a bird,  a animal, broken tree branch, a flower,  a delicate insect like a praying mantis,  or even a slug or snail—and  MOST OF ALL ANY AND ALL HUMAN BEINGS.

I was a  LAW ENFORCEMENT  SGT. for  over 25 years and it was my job to protect life and society from harm.  My son is getting ready to graduate from New York City College of  Technology as  a BroadCast Director and Graphic Designer. My son JOSHUA HOWARD has no interest in pursuing a LAW ENFORCEMENT career.

My son observed my struggles and  strains to raise him and  care for his  grandmother after his  father  became  castrophically sick and left me  with all the struggles and strains of  SINGLE PARENTHOOD.  However no matter what  I cared for my mother and  6 dogs at one time  while  still going to a full time LAW ENFORCEMENT JOB.

 

I was injured and hurt so many times and  suffered many problems but  finished my 25 years and  now  am about to see my son complete his  4 year college degree.  I want my son to have  his  needs  met, have an occupation that will fulfill his  hearts desire and be able to  turn back and help, teach, and LEAD the next generation of  HUMANBEINGS.

I believe as a mother I realize that my mortality is  forth coming, as  with anyone who has  been alive and worked super hard to  care for a family and then move out of the way for the next generation to achieve and reach their goals.

So that my son stopped drinking  MILK,  shows me that  THERE IS HOPE AND  PERSPECTIVE GOOD HEARTS IN OUR NEXT GENERATION….if my son is  any example  of that.

Because,  just  like  I worked hard to teach my son VALUES I KNOW  there are other parents  who have  taught their children and wonder if  any of those EARLY lessons  ever  stuck.

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“taking the path less traveled has made all the difference.”

Sometimes with this AGE OF TECHNOLOGY you might feel that your children have become mindless drones and just  respond to TEXT MESSAGES,  TWITTER, FACEBOOK AND TUMBLER, –however my fellow parents do not despair…MY SON STOPPED DRINKING MILK TODAY.

sincerely,

RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY

IN ALL THIS GIVE THANKS!

In my daily struggles…
I must give thanks…
Apostle Paul stated that
“I am cast down…but not destroyed…”
I have been through serious hurt and
serious physical pain….I have felt love,
romantic feelings, fear and sickness.
But even in all that…it is proven to me to
have faith, have love, and give thanks
in all of those trails!
I have awakened at 4am and found myself
tired of sleeping…my soul hungry for the
answer…I have walked my house…and
found myself full of fear that had me in
its’ grip. I would sit and pray, think and
ponder the issue and then cry.

I sometimes get in my car and drive.
I want to give thanks but sometimes it
is difficult to give thanks when it
hurts so bad. Agony is no joke.
So I always try to say “Lord have mercy
on my soul and then keep me nearer the
cross. Help me Lord, lift me up…from this
deep dark pit….pit of pain and misery…
Have mercy Lord Jesus…!
Let this pain or fear pass from me.
Sometimes I would have prayed and
grow sleepy and I climb the steps back
to my bed and fall back to sleep.
I awake in a better spirit.
I have received the Lord’s peace in my
sleep.
So when I have awakened I give thanks!
The situation may have stayed the same–
but I feel that I can cope a little better.
I feel a little less pain.
I feel a little less fear.
So IN ALL THIS GIVE THANKS!
The imediate answer to a prayer does not
always come the same day…or same year!
But the answer comes…yes the answer
comes.
All one has to do is to hold on to that
prayer, write in down in a book and keep
track of that!
Never feel despair….never give up…just
keep on holding on. Get others to pray
with you…believing that these things that
you have prayed for will happen.
Sometimes it may take years….I still do not
have a husband after all of these years.
I have been alone for 10 years. So if you
want to know how to cope with being
lonely….COUNT IT ALL JOY….AND IN ALL
THIS GIVE THANKS!
You need a job….COUNT IT ALL JOY AND
GIVE THANKS…YOU need better health
….give thanks, and count it all joy!

GIVE THANKS AND COUNT IT ALL JOY!
GIVE THANKS AND COUNT IT JOY
GIVE THANKS AND COUNT
GIVE THANKS, GIVE
GIVE THANKS

COMFORT IN YARN

I like yarn
Yarn is soft…yarn feels nice
when I work it into a scarf
Yarn glides over my hands and
fingers and
I feel comforted
by its simple soft
sensation
I like to see my yarn work
into a project
to forever hold its
shape
I like yarn because
it gives me a new
place to hide
each tiny thought,
feeling and idea
as I work the yarn through
my fingers and hands
Jogging has the
same feeling, as
well as swimming laps
As you weave, jog,or
swim you begin to
take the action or the
movement into normal
automatic movement
and then your thoughts
begin to sway with each
pull of thread, or each step of
your foot for jogging,
or each swing of your arm for
swim
And then suddenly you are not
in the immediate world of
knitting, jogging, or swim…
Your thoughts have taken
over and you brain presents
relived moments, conversations,
hugs, kisses, visions of a sunrise,
or sunset, plans for tomorrow,
thoughts of even some events
that have to be evaluated and
come to concious level —giving
way to analyization and so on…
So I like yarn….I get so
much accomplished while
I sit and do repetitive
movements like knitting!
I find comfort in yarn…
yes I do!

How about you??

WHY?

Why am I alone?
Why do I sit here and pick at this issue
like it was a bone?
Why do I cry myself to sleep?
Why do I have to hold my head
and sometimes weep
Weep for the lonliness that tends
to creep
Creep up my throat like a sore throat
Creep like the weedy vines that cling to
the side of the house
Why?
Why does my life flow in awkward zig zap
paths…never meeting the man of my heart
Why does my selfesteem tank when I
look at my body circumfrance, and my
south turning form?
Why does it matter to men of today…
it my breasts are perky?
Why did I breast feed and leave myself
in this ugly body shape…
from which only a doctors knife free me?
Why do middleage woman have to
fight to have love?
Or rather…why do I not have love?
Why? is it my faith in God never leaves me?
Why does my love of God never leave me?
Why does God continue to give me a reason
to go on?
Why? Maybe love is the answer….
I know love is the answer…
so, Now…you may ask me a question…
How can I say such negative things about
myself? Easy…. quick question…simple
answer….I AM HUMAN…I AM FRAIL, I AM
IMPERFECT….BUT I AM MADE PERFECT
THROUGH CHRIST LOVE AND MERCY ON ME!
Amen…..Why? because the Great I am that
I am …has told me so….
God’s love is covering a mulititude of sins…
God does not look at my body…God only
cares about the spirit of a person….
So yes I question and I ask WHY….?
But I know the actual answer is
‘GOD LOVE YOU AND LOVES ME….NO MATTER
WHAT THE WHY?S STATE…
SO have faith…with even your own self
motiviation…and NEVER GIVE UP…NEVER
GIVE IN….KEEP THE FAITH…NO MATTER
WHAT THE WHY?’S ARE IN YOUR LIFE!

GIVE THE GIFT OF LOVE ON YOUR BIRTHDAY!

On my birthday….just as on Valentines I sat
home alone…I dropped my son off to a bus
trip to Albany where he met Governor
Patterson, I went shopping at Famous
Brands store and purchased a nice gold tone
blouse, and a washable dusty rose colored
suede knee length skirt, to wear to church
on my birthday….
You see I was unfortunate to be born the
day after Valentines Day….!!!!! UGGGGGGH!
I have never received a Valentines..gift….
So I am always embarressed on that day and
the day after….So solution….
I gave gifts to others on my birthday…
so here is what you can do …it you never
get recognized on your birthday…here is my
creative suggestion to bless others instead
of seeking to be blessed on your birthday or
Valentines Day!
* Buy a nice outfit for cheap at Famous
Brands
* Pick a song to sing at church
* Buy long stemmed immitation roses with
a tag and write inspiritional phrase on it.
* Sing and give the roses to people
and ask them to share with you the
joy of your birthday….
Even if you do not go out for your birthday..
even if you are completely alone on your
birthday, move forward…GIVE THE GIFT OF
LOVE ON YOUR BIRTHDAY….in thanks
giving to God for his miracles in your life.
I used the scripture John 3:16 as a way
of showing God’s love for all….
*”For God so Loved the World that he Gave
his only begotten Son,
That whomsoever, believeth on him
Should not perish, but
have everlasting life!”
So there you have it….I you are a lonely
woman like me, middleaged, and over the
hill…”just a tiny bit”—give the gift of
Love to others…when you are down…
doing good deads makes you feel better.
I do not receive gifts….no one cares about
me like that….in OVER 12 YEARS OR MORE!
So do I sit back in cry?
No!!!! Of Course NOT!… Get out and GIVE!
If you have faith….Christian Faith…or Jewish
Faith, Muslim Faith…..whatever….you
believe in you can make others happy…
and thereby make yourself happy at the
same time.
Give the gift of love…!
Volunteer at a Soup kitchen, help a sick
or shut in person on your birthday…
Valentines Day???? Give flowers to an
elderly lady or man…or visit a sick child,
or donate money to a worthy cause…
or donate time in the church!
Give the gift of love…It will raise your
spirit!
You can always go home a cry about your
aloneness…in the world…but take some
of that negative self pity and turn it around
and use it for good….I felt good at the end
of my day after church was finished.
It did not matter so much that I do not
look like Beyonce, or was not given
12 long stemmed roses on Valentines Day,
It was not so painful that I did not
recieve a dinner date, or a birthday cake
because I shared my birthday by singing,
and giving 16 flowers to sixteen women
in the church….
TAKE THE CHALLENGE….
The next time you feel hurt, alone, and lonely
step out of the box of waiting for
happiness and joy to come to you…
GIVE THE GIFT OF LOVE….
GIVE THE GIFT OF LOVE! YOU WILL BE GLAD
THAT YOU GAVE THE GIFT OF LOVE!
GIVE THE GIFT OF LOVE….LET ME KNOW
HOW IT TURNS OUT….

REMEMBER….GIVE THE GIFT OF LOVE!

lOVE OF THE LORD….PATIENCE AND STRENGTH

lOVE OF THE lORD GIVES ME STRENGTH
lOVE OF THE LORD HELPS ME TO BEAR
ALL THINGS
HOPE FOR ALL THINGS
WITNESS OF HIS GLORY
AND TELL THAT FAITHFUL STORY
LOVE OF THE LORD GIVES ME
PATIENCE WITH MYSELF
AND PATIENCE WITH OTHERS
LOVE OF THE LORD
MEANS I CAN HONESTLY TELL PEOPLE I
LOVE YOU WITH THE LOVE OF THE LORD
FOR THE LOVE OF THE LORD IS
UNCONDITIONAL.
GREAT….THE MAJESTIC LORD…
MY GREAT SAVIOR….LOVES ME
UNCONDITIONALLY!!
SO I WILL REJOICE IN HIS LOVE
AND IMPLORE OTHERS TO JOIN
IN THE LOVE OF THE LORD…
FOR THERE IS HOPE, PEACE, STRENGTH
AND PATIENCE IN THE LOVE OF THE LORD
AMEN!

Trusting the One Above

 

IN THE SPIRIT---

IN THE SPIRIT---

HOLD TIGHT TO THE

MASTER’S HAND

FOR HE HAS THE

GREAT MASTER

PLAN

FOR YOU,

FOR ME

HE KNOWS OUR

DESTINY

SOME DO NOT

BELIEVE IN

PREDESTINATION

WHILE  OTHERS

BELIEVE

THAT LIFE IS NO COMPLETE

HAPPINESS

BUT TODAY

I RECOMMEND

HOLD TIGHT TO

THE MASTER’S

HAND—

FOR YOU AND

FOR ME

HE HAS A MASTER

PLAN.

THE DAY BREAK

AND THE SUNSET

ARE TIMED

JUST PERFECTLY

THE HEAVENS

ABOVE STAY

IN ORBIT AND

OUR LIFE AND

DEATH IS ORDAINED

BEFORE WE

KNEW WHO

WE WER

SO HOLD TIGHT

TO THE MASTER’S

HAND

FOR HE HAS

A PERFECT

MASTER PLAN

FOR US

ALL.

~~~~FINI