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A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING….7TH INSTALLMENT….CONCERN ABOUT THE FUTURE OF EVERYTHING…

 

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

Well,  where do I start today.
 
 

 

 

 

At this time…it is about 4am,  or 5 am.  I was awakened by this stabbing pain in my back.  As usual I am blog stat obsessed.  So I came down stairs to take my meds..for this “shingles” and I came to the computer to start checking my blog stats.

  Low, for the entire summer,  except when I wrote about Bernie Mack passing away.  I got 519 that day.  I would have perferred a different number.  But I did love Bernie Mack a lot. 

 However, I do not believe that I paid the homage to him that he deserved.  Anyway,  I digress. 

 I have this stabbing pain from shingles… It feels as sharp as it did 5 days ago…before I knew it was shingles…Ugh…Oh, Lord…what do I do?

  I have this ridiculous rash on my stomach and pain.  It comes and goes.  I do not take pain killers. 

 I am not one for pain killers.  Pain killers can destroy the stomach lining,  or cause high blood pressure or worse. 

 So I avoid pain killers at this time.  I am willing to cope …so I just blog…until I get too pain ridden,  or tired or both.

I will stop by the emergency room, or go back to the doctor….before Tuesday…(back to work day) to decide what is the next step with this annoying back pain…from shingles.  UGH….Lord have Mercy!

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Alaska has more to offer than just  “Northern lights”,  polar bears,  ice,  and wild life….According to John McCain…there is a Vice President up there. 

  I do not know what to think of this.  It is quite smart…but long term committment….long term  history or knowlege of government on the part of  the recent governor of  a  “Bible Belt” gun toting  state….hard to figure…”just fasten your seat belts…it’s gonna be a bumpy ride!!!”

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REVISITING HURRICANE KATRINA….

I do not understand the so called NO PLAN OF ACTION PLAN…EXCEPT TO EVACUATE EVERYBODY….NO PLAN OF ACTION PLAN OF NOT TO PREPARE A HOLD OVER SITE INCASE THEY CANNOT GET EVERYBODY OUT PLAN????

  Do they always get it wrong I wonder?  I hope this is not playing out like some kind of C-list movie…where the main characters…the victims suffer again…like last time. 

 I remember watching the news on my friends cable TV Weather Channel,  and CNN and how those people were stranded on the roofs of buildings and screaming for just some water! 

  Lord…I hope these elected and state officials,, and city officials have their finger on  the pulse of  this new hurricane Gustav!

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SCHOOL SUPPLIES…..WHO PAYS FOR SCHOOL SUPPLIES FOR MY KID?

Yesterday I was sitting in the park…watching my son play tennis.  I was relating my son’s lovely tennis camp experience…and golf experience of the summer to another mother. 

 She changed the subject to school supplies.  She is NOT a single parent like me.   So she does not get the point of how hard it is to buy anything after the rent is paid. 

 She started telling me to go to Jamaica  Avenue,  Staples,  and Office Max to buy school supplies.  I told her that I have no money at all. 

 She started telling me that  pencils and things were 20 cents etc.  I explained that I was literally sitting there with$5.00 (five dollars in my pocket). 

 I explained that I pay $1600.00 per month for rent….I am a single parent…(which she knows)

 She is not.  She and her husband are home owners and have two kids.

  I have one child…but I care for my mother and son.  I do not receive child support.  So you know what happens to me? 

I feel like back to school is just like CHRISTMAS TIME IN AUGUST AND SEPTEMBER!  Whether a box of crayons or pencils or pens is cheap means nothing.

  I am on a limited income…so it is not PART OF MY BUDGET….I do not have a budget….My income is shot! 

 Once I pay the rent….I have barely enough money to buy food.  I have a nearly 6 foot tall size twelve foot….15 yearold  eating maching in the house. 

My loving oversize  child…needs to eat alot of carbs…or he  can get literally SICK….(READ MY OTHER BLOGS…) 

 So….basically  We  as a family of three…. live  PAY CHECK TO PAY CHECK. 

 (READ MY OTHER BLOGS ON INCOME DISPARITY….THEN YOU WILL UNDERSTAND MY POINT HERE.—ALSO PROBABLY THE REASON FOR THIS STUPID SHINGLES PROBLEM (STRESS RELATED ILLNESS).

—Thus,  my annoyance…when this “woman” who is not struggeling on her own like I am…started pressuring me to get up out of the park and run down to Jamacia Avenue….and get these great sales..

I just started spewing my SAD STORY ABOUT MY LACK OF MONEY….but I did inform her that I would go get my son’s school supplies when I get paid this week. 

 How could she be so unaware that other people do not have the same set of financial circumstances that she has? 

 My family tree does not have any uncles, aunts, cousins,  husband (due to catastrophic disease ),  inlaws( due to total disfunction of my estranged husband’s family)—-Myself, my mother and my son do not possess any family that step in and give any financial assistance what so ever!

  When my son graduated eigth grade going into highschool  …I was the only person   from our family at his graduation!  My mother could not attend because the church building has not been made wheel chair friendly.

  So…if I do not have the cash on hand…or even a credit card(due to financial ruin from my banckruptcy  from my estranged husband)—–WHO PAYS FOR SCHOOL SUPPLIES FOR MY SON??????????????????

——-NOT THE PRESIDENT,  NOT THE GOVERNOR,  NOT THE MAYOR,  –=—ONLY MY PAYCHECK…THAT COMES NEXT WEEK. 

 MY RENT IS PAID ON THE 16TH OF THE MONTH

…SO do the math….life is hard. 

 Yeah,  I can sit here and blog…but guess what…? 

 I have dial up aol system…$9.00 per month.

  School supplies, new shoes,  and clothes cost a whole lot more than that!

So as always…this woman turns her back,  runs to her family because she owns a home across the street from the tennis courts where her child and my child play tennis,  and she continued on her merry way of getting great bargins for ‘BACK TO SCHOOL’ for her kids. 

GOOD FOR HER!!!  But she needs to mind her business when it comes to me….ya know?

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UNDERSTANDING LIMITATIONS…..You must wonder what my financial problems do to my son? 

  He is not spoiled…that is for sure!  He is not a couch potatoe either! 

WE DO NOT HAVE CABLE EITHER

….BUT MY SON DOES HAVE A TENNIS RACKET.

  My son is learning that his possible route out of the financial troubles of his mother….may teach him to develop a skill that is both employable…and scholarship worthy!  

 My son is hearing how tennis coaches make money….”sometimes too much money”

====he is learning the game of golf….too!((((NYC HAS A FREE PROGRAM OF GOLF FOR KIDS IN DYKER STREET….EXIT #4 OFF THE BELT PARKWAY))))

  So,  money problems…may teach my kid…how to survive with learned skills,  and a good education. 

So is it all bad? 

 Sometimes the best life lessons are hard lessons.

 I wish it did not have to be the case…for my child.

 But I pray for  his strength…and my strength too.

till next blog…

river!

ps….the shingles pain is less and I think I can go back to bed now.

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A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING–4TH INSTALLMENT

 

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

Well, I have heard it all,  and seen it all now!  Have we reversed back to the Jim Crow days again?

What is this with the book on Obama?  Why are people stating that he is muslim.  Is it a crime to be a muslim?  Where have the rights, and values of individuals decreased to?  How can someone smear a presidencial candate to such a level. 

 If Barak Obama did not know he was in the furnance of racism…he definitely knows it now. —They are throwing stones and accusations.  This is being done because they want power in their hands so that they can do what they want. 

 They want everybody to believe that they are the good guys.  And it would appear that as soon as they get “in” they will turn on us as well.  This is a difficult world that we live in. These people who are writing this stuff do not care about Obama’s wife,  or children. 

They do not care about the effect of this evil campaign on  his American Born and raised children.  I can see that Barak has strong family values…I hope that he talks openly with his daughters,  and of course they know the truth of who they are and who their mother and father are. 

 But it has got to be difficult to be so young and hear suck terrible things about one’s father….especially in such a public way.  You do not have to like Obama….but think about his children for a moment. 

Think about his White grandparents and his half sister.  What did these people do to deserve this assult on their personal beliefs and values?  Is it a crime to be an Mix-race European/Afro American and  be in the running for president of the United States?!!!

Let us move forward..according to  1010 wins today 8/16/08..a pigeon was found covered in purple paint walking around in a park yesterday in Queens  New York.  Why would anyone want to harm an animal is so beyond me.  It is so very sad.

A baby was shaken to death yesterday—also reported by 1010wins news this morning.  Another news story that I cannot stomach very well.  Does anyone get a talk before they take these newborn babies home?  When I gave birth to my son, I was told to treat him like a king!  Not to allow him to control me…but that he was a little king in the house hold.  Give him love and affection.  Babies cry…that is normal. 

 Where is this logic that if you shake a child harshly that it will stop crying?  This hurts my heart so deeply.  Oh,  it is becoming too, too much.  The human baby should be placed on the endangered species. 

 We need to place all expectant parents in parenting schools…I mean it.  Proper care and maintance of new borns and what to expect as the child matures and grows.  Also the topic on what constitutes CHILD ABUSE.  Educate people and then that might decrease some of these very dangerous and fatal actions by relatives and parents.

Yesterday  I traveled up to Nyack.  I had to run to my college.  Nyack College.  I went across the Tappanzee Bridge.  Strange bridge…really,  it was rather odd.  It was more like a road across the water…with a little bump, or hump of a bridge formation that they made as the “bridge” part.  Nyack College has a GREAT AND EXCELLENT PROGRAM…for ADULTS who want to complete their education.  I had 69 credits.  They accepted my credits and then placed me in their program for ADULT AND CONTINUING EDUCATION/DISTANCE EDUCATION.  The college professors drive all the way from their residence in Weshchester,  and come to Queens or Longlsland to teach  and great topic.  ORGANIZATIONAL MANAGMENT.  I give more detail in another blog later…but the course includes a thesis of about 100 pages or more,  business ethics, and detailed writing and reports that is completed in 14 months!  The College also has a program for Masters Degree as well.  I write give more detail later..But go online to www.nyack.org if you want to know more!  I loved every bit of the 2x a week course work!  Great professors and Great classroom experience as well!

I got lost trying to come back from Nyack.  I ended up in Woodbury Commons.  Woodbury Commons looked very nice indeed.  I could not stay….I had to cash, so no shopping for me.  I met a nice lady at the information booth who gave me the directions back home. 

 Please don’t ask why I could not figure my way out….I never said I was that intelligent.  I left home at around 1:30 yesterday and did not walk back into my house until 10:00.  Traffic was terrible due to the rain, and storms.  But I am home. Thank the Lord!  I think my son Jay Jewelz enjoyed the ride…even though we kept arguing about whose fault it was that we got lost…but we talked and laughed our way through it!

As soon as we got home we had pizza with my Mom and just thanked the Good Lord that we made it home safely in all that rain.!

See ya there!

~~~~riveroflifelisajoy!

NEW AGE RELIGION AND OPRAH! HAS OPRAH CHANGED HER WORLD VIEW AND RELIGIOUS VIEW???

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UNIVERSE AND WEAVE IN HARMONY

It really is quite simple.  Oprah has come to the top…sort of like Martin Luther King….She has been to the mountain top…and she has seen things most of us only dream about.  So what do we hold on to?  We hold on to our faith.  We will fight for our faith. Some people die for their faith.  What happened to Oprah you ask???  HAS OPRAH BACK SLID???

Oprah has been through a lot of negative experiences in life.  Her past sexual abuse experiences  have helped to shape her views of the world. 

I believe that her heart is in the right place.  However,  strick Christians would not agree.  However, is Oprah obligated to “preach” the gospel that she does not completely agree with?  Does Oprah call her self   BORN -AGAIN?  I do not believe that I have ever heard Oprah refer to herself as being, “SAVED” have you??? 

So why do we as minority folk,  African Americans…believe that Oprah is leading people astray?  You have to be a Pastor,  or atleast claim yourself to be a Evangelist atleast…inorder to lead people. 

Oprah Winfrey is a television talk show host.  She just happens to be African American,  she just happens to have come from a “Christian Background..”  But the last time I checked…most African American Denominations that are Baptist,  or other wise…believe that a SINNER must confess his sins to the Lord Jesus in order to be saved.  You should not term yourself a Baptist…if you have not confessed your sins and accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior. 

Has Oprah ever discussed that on Television?  I do not believe I heard a show about her “confession of her sins and receiving the “SHED BLOOD OF JESUS” upon her life and soul for the REDEMPTION OF SINS…HAVE YOU?

So before you can call Oprah a LEADER IN THE CHURCH…you must examin her life as what we are so LOOSELY terming CHRISTIAN LIFESTYLE….

What makes a person a spokes person of Christain Ethics….what makes a person a spokes person in the Christian Church….There are many who would argue that Gay people cannot be considered Christian.   So let us not banter the term of Christian around so quickly….

I believe that you cannot call Oprah anything until you have examined who she really believes her life to be patterned after.

Since Oprah does not have a congregation of followers…per se’  than let us assume that she is no different than the people that we have conversations with around the “water cooler”  or “water bottle”  at work. 

Everyone is entitled to his or her own opinion. 

Can you ram your religion down someones throat????

You must LOVE PEOPLE INTO THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN….YOU CAN NOT CHASE THEM DOWN THE STREET AND SCREAM AT THEM.

Look at the Old Testament….the Prophets were always the first to get killed?  Why?  Because they told people things that they did not LIKE OR WANT TO HEAR!!!!

Some prophets were stoned to death.

Lets say Oprah started telling people to stop wearing body tatooes.  How well would that go over?

How long would Oprahs talk show last if she told people that they BETTER STOP HAVING SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE…OR SEX OUT OF MARRIAGE,  OR CHILDREN WITHOUT BEING MARRIED?

Oprah is trying to make a dollar…which is a freedom that we enjoy in this country!

Do you think she is trying to offend her audience and then loose her ratings and her beautiful homes etc., etc.,

Of course she is not going to say that.—So Oprah Winfrey is a DIPLOMAT….OPrah is a diplomat.

She will not change her views or discuss her personal relationship with God on major television networks…therefore she will only say things that will not offend …but bring people together.  Especially people who would not believe in God or even try to change their life style at all.

So in essence…CAN YOU CATCH MORE FLIES WITH HONEY…THAN WITH VINEGAR????

 Of course you can!

So, am I stating that Oprah is trying to EVEN CATCH ANYBODY AT ALL? 

no,  i DO NOT BELIEVE SHE IS ATTEMPTING TO CHANGE THE WORLD THROUGH RELIGIOUS THOUGHTS…but she is trying to bridge the gap between good and evil deeds,  and helping the global commmunity.

I think she has a right to her PRIVATE THOUGHTS on this issue.  Does she have to confess her SALVATION in front of an entire nation? 

Has every Christian reading this blog…OPENLY CONFESSED YOUR SALVATION TO YOUR PLACE OF BUSINESS OR WORK LATELY?   HOW MUCH DISCUSSION ARE YOU ALLOWED TO ENGAGE IN BEFORE SOMEONE FILES A COMPLAINT TO EEO ABOUT INAPPROPRIATE RELIGIOUS TALK AT THE WORK PLACE? 

I believe that we can look up to Oprah as a role model for young African American girls and boys to follow down the road to success through hard work.  However,  I would not try to fit Oprah into the role of the CHURCH EVANGELIST at this time.

What do you think????

2nd installment: A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING!

This week   AUGUST 8, 2008 —

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is strange indeed..This JUST IN—AS REPORTED  IN NEW YORK CITY…BY 1010WINS RADIO………:

BERNIE MACK HAS PASSED AWAY.  I ENJOYED HIS television show,  the Bernie Mack show.  He interacted with his “wife, and adopted kids in a very natural way. He always brougth a chuckle and a smile to my tired work worn spirit at the end of the evening. 
 He had pnuenomia.  It will be  great loss to black comedians and all comedians.  As they say in the hood….WE JUST LOST ANOTHER OLE’  G!   (TRANSLATION–OLD GANGSTER)  SUPPOSEDLY A ENDEARING TERM.
HE also played in THE OCEANS ELEVEN, TWELVE, AND THIRTEEN MOVIES.  BERNIE ALSO DID A PERIOD PIECE REGARDING BLACKS IN SWIMMING COMMPETTION. Bernie Mack had a interesting way of pulling the audience into his world.  I liked him and I know the world of intertainment has suffered a great loss. —You will be missed Bernie,  you will be missed.
 

 

 

 

  Next,  I went to the movies the other night with my son.  We also took his friend Michael.  My son is fifteen…but he does not mind “Mommy”  taking him to the movies sometimes.  At times he and his friend Michael, contact their “girl” friends and guy friends from their  previous school Grace Lutheran of Queens Village, and they  go to the movies.

  But the other night it was our turn to go to see THE MUMMY!  It started out being a bit corny with the typical English husband and wife characters.  Then the interesting part….the Chinese Mummy played by Jet Li!.  It was rather interesting.   I had really planed on going to sleep during the movie. 

 But it actually kept my interest.  I liked the Yeti!  They were cute, appealing….and enjoyable to watch.  Great Computer work!  I loved the use of the TERRACOTA ARMY!  The ending of the movie was not as good as I expected.  It ended with everybody dancing.  BORING!   I mean,  like look…  This young woman who had been immortal and had guarded the Mummy,  now is dancing?!  Okay…what happens next?

 

 

 

Let’s move forward.  PAWLING NEW YORK.  Have you been there?  It is beautiful!  The Gordon Kent New England Tennis Camp is there.  My son received a scholarship from the USTA (United States Tennis Association–Eastern Division) — My son Jay Jewelz ( psudeo name of course)  was there for 13 days.  He came home a much darker kid,  relaxed,  happy, and begging for more next year! 

 He had won a mug for his efforts with name of the camp on it.  He received a t-shirt, a tennis baseball cap, thermos with the logo of the camp on it, and even a video of hisskill ability and training that he received.  They even had him dance a little on the video so you can see his happiness at being in that location.  My son wished he could stay a few more weeks. 

 That is the best option….better than the fresh air fund.  The tennis camp has goals, and ideals.  I was never comfortable with sending my son to the FRESH AIR FUND…. only because my child would be living and breathing the air of another family that I do not know.  But the Tennis camp was on the grounds of the TRINTY SCHOOL IN PAWLING NEW YORK. 

   My son and all the other over night campers stayed in dorms.  They took the kids to a movie (Batman),  the mall, they had parties for them,  and most of all…..played…tennis,  TENNIS,  TENNIS,  TENNIS!!!  5 HOURS PER DAY!!!!  He received personalized instruction also.  My son told me he took two showers per day,  had great food.  Jay Jewelz told me that the chocolate milk was great tasting. 

They woke up daily to the rolling hills and valleys of Pawling New York!  America the Beautiful!  I enjoyed the ride up there.  65 miles out of New York City!  I even enjoyed the ride to get there.  My son really loved it.  He met tennis players in their teens who were for Europe.  Some spoke French!

  What a great experience!!!  I am so thankful for the opportunity that my son experienced.  I will pay for the camp next year….Thanks USTA!—AND PARENTS….LOOK FOR FREE PROGRAMS IN YOUR NEIGBORHOOD FOR TENNIS!  IT IS WELL WORTH IT.  LOOK UP NYJTL.ORG—-THERE ARE MANY PROGRAMS OUT THERE. (New York Junior Tennis League) 

SEEK THEM OUT!  YOU AND YOUR CHILDREN WILL BE HAPPY!!!

OBAMA WATCH….This is not news…but a discussion I had the other day while at work.  I was talking to a carpenter.  This man and I met and agreed on certain topics about life in our current world.  However, when he and I discussed Barak Obama…..this man actually stated that he believed that Obama was Muslim. 

 He was very concerned about this belief.  He said that is had nothing to do with race…but that he believed that OBAMA was muslim and that was a cause of concern for him.  I tried to explain that Obama was raised by his white grand parents in the United States. 

 This man did not care…he believed that he was musilim and did not have America’s best interest at heart.  I stopped trying to convience this gentleman that his views might be wrong….I let it go.  Instead we talked about road rage,  dog eat dog…rat race,  family,  maritial issues,  kids,  etc. 

But I just could not get over his belief that OBAMA is a closet Muslim.  This man showed real fear!  WOW!  Should I really be surprised? 

 Personally,  I have my questions about Obama but,  the name he was named by his white mother,  his mother was an anthropologist, who traveled the world,  his mother did not changer her religion,  he was raised in the United States most of his life…because he longed for stability….I wonder,  I wonder….”DO PEOPLE JUST WANT TO BELIEVE THE NEGATIVE OR WHAT?”

John Edwards and cheating on his wife?  What else is new?  I have not seen any politician who has not admitted to having cheating yet!  The worse of course is that Mr.  Edwards cheated while his wife was ill. 

 However,  my voice teacher who was married to a pscyhologist….her husband cheated also while she was undergoing treatment for breast cancer. 

 It is unfortunate…but the human EGO…AND SEX drive do seem to have more control over all of us…than we would want.  I hope they can recover from this. 

MEDICAL MINUTE:   I have to tell you I had a MAMMOGRAM THIS WEEK!  I was more scared not to go…than to go. 

 When I heard that Christina Applegate had been coping with illness of breast cancer, and that my doctor had been after me to get it done….I finally gave in.  My selfesteem went up. 

 I felt relieved.  But I am still waiting for the test results.  I told several ladies at work.  Did you know that one woman asked for the information of where I went to get it done?! 

 Wow!  I did not realize that my actions could affect someone else!  So that is why I am telling you.  LADIES…TAKE CARE OF YOUR BODIES!  GO GET YOUR MAMMOGRAMS DONE….It is not painful….it is uncomfortable…but I did not feel any pain. 

 The technician was pleasant and nice to talk to.  The woman was so professional I did not feel embaressed.  (((I do not like being disrobed—for any reason except the swimming pool)))—So please go….your life, my life depends upon it!

What is going on in Russia?  Stay tuned to your radio!!!—Cable tv etc.

Oh…did you notice the GAS PRICES?  I actually paid 4.13 at the pump.  Great….keep going down,  down,  down!

till next rant~~riveroflifelisajoy~

SLAVERY IN AMERICA: RECENT APOLOGIES AND THE DEBATE ON REPARATIONS

I am  a child of slaves.  I am a child of first generation black Americans to have their own New York City Home.  I am a child of a African American family to be the first  to go to college.  I am a mother of a black child who is first generation to play tennis as his major sport of skill. 

 I am African American wife of  a skizophrenic, (who has been missing for ten years).  I am an African American wife of a African American male skizphonprenic- who has not provided child support for ten years due to his missing status and the RULES that govern the Social Security Administration.

  I am an African American who can not get HEAP HELP (GOVERNMENTAL FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE FOR UTILITY BILLS i.e. Gas and Electric) because the government states that SINGLE PARENT STATUS…EARNING $43,000.00 PER YEAR, PAYING $1600.00 for 3 bedroom apartment in New York City,  paying full utilties of building,  $158.00 per month car insurance,  extremely high milk, juice, fruit, meat,  vegetables,  personal care products,  clothing,  medical needs insurances,  life insurances on my self valued at over $100,00.00 disability insurances on myself (especially since my missing sick husband left me responsible for my child),  catastrophic disease insurances on my self.

Having detailed my financial condition as a 48 yearold African American Daughter of slave ancestors….It would appear that I have the same if not similar problems as my white counter part Americans in some cases. 

 However,  what makes me believe that I do deserve a form if not actual SLAVE REPARATION–is that I would have completed COLLEGE many years ago—if it had not been for BEOG/ PELL AND TAP GRANTS BEING DENIED!  

Those grants were denied me when I was 21 years old!  I had just been accepted into CBS Television Internship Program through Queens College in the Journalism department.  I was registering for my course that was applied to the internship and was told by the college that PELL GRANTS,  BEOG AND TAP Aide had been denied to me because I had used up all of my POINTS! 

 I did not financial aide available!!!  I had ignorantly retaken courses that I had failed  and then passed.  However,  my re-registering for those courses had caused me to use up my points. 

 My Academic Counselor named  Barbara Blank  did not guide me properly,  —I am truly not clear on how this terrible mistake occured.

  Whatever caused this terrible error…caused me to have to leave college after I had already completed 61 credits!!!! 

 The financial aide counselor had discussed the problem with my mother….my African American mother….another daughter of ancestral slaves….My mother whose parents had not been educated higher than elementary school in Virgina (Drakes Branch,  and Farmville Virgina to be exact). 

 My mother had an option explained to her by the financial aide counselor….”Refinance your house so that your daughter could finish college.”

  My mother, descendant of slaves flatly stated,” NO! I am not wasting my mortgage on that!”

  My sister, who did not complete college and who was 6 years older than me– had been whispering into my mother’s ears heavily.

  She did not want me to complete college…because she was jealous and she told my mother  that I becoming a CAREER COLLEGE STUDENT….LEARNING BUT NEVER GRADUATING.

  I was only 21 years  old at that time.  Also CBS television internship supervisor in charge of my internship had promised me a great future!  I had to compete against other people—HUNDREDS! .. inorder to get accepted into that internship!

  I had made an impression on the CBS Internship program…but now!  My financial aide points had run out from Pell Grant,  BEOG,  and TAP were no longer funding my education.

  I could not work to make enough money to pay for those classes,–tuition was a mere $900.00 back then….but it was still to high for a full time college student. 

The final outcome is this….I left college, unable to pay for it. 

 My mother,  daughter of Slave ancestry could not see the benefit of helping me to complete my education because her thinking back then was limited  and poisoned by my sister’s jealousy. 

 Thus  I left college, severly let down….my mother,  daughter of slaves told me to just get a job….My mother could not understand the circumstances that would notw shape my life and her’s forever!

I went to a business school,  I went to Taylor Business Institute!  I learned secretarial skills. ((question–why was I able to get a loan for a trade school and not a college???))

 I was hired by a temp agency and began the long road back to college.  I began paying for my classes one at a time….I was eventually hired full time by J. Michael Bloom Talent Agency. 

 My big mistake was that I got married.  The marriage did not prevent me from being educated…but I began to rearrange my goals around the marriage.  My husband and I did accomplish some goals like buying a house,  and having  a child. 

 My African American husband wanted me to complete college…but coming full circle my husband suffered catastrophic severe skizphrenia and left me with bankruptcy,loss of a home to foreclosure,  and a child to raise.

  I am currently working on a job for the past 19 years that has abosultely NOTHING to do with my original college related goals.  The job  helps pay for food, and rent–barely–. 

 I struggle due to the previous explained debts that I worry about daily. 

 HIND sight is not twenty-twenty for me. 

 I knew that my level of success would not be fulfilled if I could not complete that INTERNSHIP AT CBS AND REGISTER FOR MY CLASSES WHEN I WAS 21 YEARS OLD. 

 However,  not having an educated family,  that would understand the value of an education,  and the financial scarifices required to accomplish that goal…thus here I sit today….BLOGGING…out my frustration. 

My actual, blogging is healthy for me…but it cannot replace the years of economic success I have not ever experienced,  education,  and opportunities that I have missed out on.

  Blogging cannot give me financial power to help cover the debts that HEAP will not help me to pay …because I am just $50 or more dollars over their limit of assistance for a single parent with only 1 (one) child.

  I have been told that I have to have more children to be eligible to receive government assistance. 

The  goal in this article is to explain why SLAVE REPARATIONS would have helped a person like myself. 

 I have been working ever since I had to leave college. 

 Understand that I only left college because I had no money to pay for tuition.  They would not allow me to take a loan….my mother would not refinance her home (which she actually did refinance some years later…so she could make a basment apartment for rental purposes)—I have always pushed to further my education,  I recently partly completed a program NYACK Adult Continuing education–called ORGANIZATIONAL MANAGMENT…I have to pay off about $600.00 and complete three essays to receive my Bachaelor of Science in Organizational Managament. 

 I should have done this two years ago.  So what is the hold up you ask?  I have my child who has been suffering with seizure disorder increasingly over the past two years,  and I also am caring for my mother who has become an invalid and stroke victim over the past 4 years. 

So here I sit.   I am gearing up to complete my 3 essays in the next few weeks and receive my full credit and I can graduate in November of this year. 

I have traveled a long road.  I know there are many others who have traveled a long road as well.

  Do I believe that educational reparations would have helped me….OF COURSE IT WOULD HAVE HELPED ME! 

 My educational goals would not have been tied to my mother’s personal finances..and I would have been able to complete the internship at CBS in Journalism. 

What type of EDUCATIONAL REPARATIONS would I have used you might ask?  Here is my concept of the best form of education reparations for children of ancestral African American Slaves:

  • SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE AND RECEIVE GED/HIGHSCHOOL DIPLOMA
  • MAINTAIN PASSING GRADES IN COLLEGE
  • TAKE REMEDIAL COURSES TO IMPROVE ACADEMICS AND SUCCESSFULLY PASS ALL REMEDIAL COURSES
  • NO—-TERM LIMITS ON EDUCATION
  • STUDENTS MUST ENROLL IN COLLEGE CONSEQUTIVELY—UNLESS EMERGENCY IN FAMILY,  MEDICAL PROBLEMS, FINANCIAL CIRCUMSTANCES TO BE EVALUATED BY REPARATIONS COMMITTEE ON ACADEMIC REPARATIONS
  • SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE BACHELOR OF any ACCREDITED COLLEGE,  IVY LEAGUE,  CITY,  STATE COLLEGE PROGRAM
  • SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE ANY INTERNSHIP PROGRAM
  • SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE ANY TRADE PROGRAM:  ELECTRICAL, PLUMBING, TRUCKING, NURSING, CAR REPAIR AND DESIGN, ETC.,
  • SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE PROGRAMS AND HAVE ACADEMIC GOALS,  AND JOB BOOKLET ON PERSONAL/INDIVIDUAL ASSESEMENT, and RESUME– COMPLETED AT THE END OF EACH SEMESTER.
  • MAINTAIN ATLEAST A — C– AVERAGE…WITH  EXPLANATION OF GRADES AND RESTRAINTS  AND DETAILING PROBLEMS RELATED TO COMPLETION OF ACADEMIC GOALS TO BE EVALUATED DIRECTLY BY ACADEMIC REPARATIONS COMMITTEE.
  • FULL TUITION PAYMENT FOR ALL AFRCIAN AMERICAN SLAVE DECENDANTS
  • FULL TUTITION FOR BACHELOR,  MASTERS PROGRAMS.
  • FULL TUTITION PAID FOR DOCTORATE AFTER PROVIDING 4OOO HOURS OF MENTORING,  PROJECT GIVE BACK, AND EACH ONE TEACH ONE PROGRAMS FOR SUMMER YOUTH AND YOUNG MOTHER PROGRAMS.
  • FULL TUTITION PAYMENTS FOR 2ND BACHELOR DEGREE FOR 7000 HOURS OF MENTORING, PROJECT GIVE BACK, AND EACH ONE TEACH ONE PROGRAMS TO BE DEVELOPED BY THE AFRICAN AMERICAN REPARATIONS PROGRAM.  
  • ALL CANDIDATES MUST SUBMITT DOCUMENTED PROOF OF 3000 HOUR AND 7000 HOUR GIVE BACK AND MENTORING PROGRAMS INORDER TO BE ELIGIBLE  FOR DOCTORATE PROGRAMS AND 2ND DEGREE PROGRAMS.
  • ALL GRADUATES ARE REQUIRED TO GIVE 100 HOURS YEARLY TO TALKS AT ELEMENTARY EDUCATION,  JUNIOR HIGHSCHOOL EDUCATION, HIGHSCHOOL EDUCATION,  AND  COLLEGE PROGRAMS FOR MENTORING AND PASSING ON THE LEGACY OF THE BENEFITS OF EDCUATION AND TAKING THE RESPONSIBILITY OF REPARATIONS AND BECOMING SUCCESSFUL IN ATTAINING ACADEMIC GOALS THAT ARE A STANDARD OF EXCELLENCE IN THE AFRiCAN AMERICAN SLAVE DESCENDANTS.

This is my concept of proper reparations.  I would abide by these rules so that I could have the opportunities to pass on the goals and future that keep America growing and great. 

We as a American Citizens do not need a hand out!  We need a hand UP! Help me to educate myself so that I can help continue the legacy of Pride in the United States as a Super Power in the World.  Help me to educate myself  so that I can give back to the generations to come.

As it stands right now…I can only give this blogg!!!!

  I could do so much more if my education was free…but with RESPONSIBILTY AND DEFINITELY STRINGS ATTACHED.  The type of strings attached will cause success in the future decendants of slaves…but those decendants would eventually be called desendants of SUCCESSFULL AFRICAN AMERICANS WHO HAVE MENTORED, AND GAVE BACK, THEREBY ASSISTING THE UNITED STATES TO MAINTAIN ITS ECONOMIC STRENGTH,  EDUCATIONAL POWER,  LITERACY,  AND GROWTH IN THE WORLD. 

WITH EDUCATION….COMES AN EMPOWERED WORKFORCE THAT CAN STRENGTHEN THE ECONOMY…..CRIME BASED ON ECNOMICS WILL GO DOWN IN MINORITY COMMUNITIES,  BLACK MALES WILL BE INSPIRED TO GATHER RESOURCES AND BECOME MORE SUCCESSFUL AND STRONG.  YOUNG WOMEN WILL GATHER RESOURCES AND BECOME MORE SUCCESSFUL AND STRONG.

The program of reparations needs to be looked at. 

 It may take many years for it to come about. 

 MOst likely not in my life time,  or even my child’s  life time. 

 But the concept does need to be addressed. 

 Maybe my concepts are not all acceptable… there may be better methods of ACADEMIC REPARATIONS.

IN CONCLUSION:

DO NOT GIVE ME THE FORTY ACRES AND AN MULE….

I WANT A FREE….RESPONSIBILITY ACADEMIC BASED REPARATION FOR DESCENDANTS OF AFRICAN SLAVES. 

(((JOBS WILL COME WITH AN EDUCATED WORK FORCE!!!))) 

 NOTE…MANY EUROPEAN COUNTRIES MAKE EDCUATION FREE  FOR ALL!!!!

REPARATIONS ON AN ACADEMIC LEVEL WILL IMPROVE  THE QUALITY OF LIFE AND ECONOMIC STANDING OF THE UNITED STATES AS A SUPER POWER  AND ALSOIN THE GLOBAL ECONOMY AS WELL.

“`RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY

Where Have I been?

Journey Behind the Falls at Niagara ...

 

I have been on a journey…

My friend

I have not been lost

intentionally

but a journey of length

and depth  has

challenged my

very heart and soul

I have gathered need

and gathered sorrow

My journey leads me

down dark alleys

bright rooms,

painful thoughts

and haunting fears

Tears are worthless

here on my journey

But the tears still come

and roll down my cheeks

like snowballs gathering

size and speed

My nose and face feel clogged

from the emotions spent

on this journey

Come free me my friend

from this torment

But I do not cry for myself

I cry for another

My son, my dear son

What will be?

Sickness again claimed

him on June 24 after

his American History

Regents exam…of which he

did receive an 88!

The victory of his passing

is overshadowed by the

illness that gripped him in

its stealy hands

I wish for him joy,

health, and happines…

I pray for him health, health, and more health

So that has been my journey my friend

Seeking health and strength for

the child of my womb

The child I had prayed for 15 years ago

is in a battle for his life….

So my journey is not a lonely one

but a hard. brittle, prickly one

Where have I been?  Right here,

at home, at work, but journey is a battle of

the mind and strength of the

spirit.

JOurney is to walk a walk of faith,

and endurance…

So I have not called you,  written you,

but I know you are still there.

I will not go,

while I continue this journey,  whose

destination I yet do not know.

-fini-

Riveroflifelisajoy

credit of waterfalls image…from aol journey images

A FACE ONLY HIS MAMA COULD LOVE!!! MY REFLECTIONS ON MY LOVE OF ANIMALS….!

Gus and RascalJustin Sullivan, Getty Images

Teed, left, celebrates with Gus after her pooch was crowned champ. Next to her is Dane Andrew and former winner Rascal, another Chinese Crested. Owners of ugly dogs from all over the country traveled to compete in the contest.

 

I had two of these Cresteds in my house when I was growing up.  My mother loved to help animals!  Our house became a haven rest stop…kind of like the UNDERGROUND RAILROAD for dogs and cats in between adoptive homes!  My mother’s friend Joyce had Yorkies that she breed.  Sometimes she would come across a breeding dog that no one wanted anymore.  My mother would take the dog in until an ad was placed in the local news paper and a adoptive home was found.  For some reason we ended up with the two Chinese Cresteds!!!

 

They were so funny and so full of energy.  I hated to give them up!  But I already had 3 dogs at the time.  My mother had a very large bungalo in Springfield Gardens Queens back then  We had the largest yard on the block.  We had an above ground swimming pool  also.  I loved my childhood for those reasons.  I had my own playground and adventure land.  Our yard had a large apple tree, and rose bushes all around.  I really, really  remember the joys of summer back then.

I digress… any how,  the Chinese Cresteds would come when I called them.  I used to call them THING 1 AND THING 2  or combination of  “THE NAKEDS!!!!”    I would say,  “NAKEDS….COME GET YOUR FOOD!!!!!”  And you know what they would do?  They would come running and slide into  the kitchen in such excitement I would just laugh and laugh!  They were adorable!

I kind of feel sorry for these Chinese Cresteds displayed in this AOL article because they  are sick and then being called ugly.  I mean naturally ugly is one thing…but a dog missing a leg, and one eye and having skin cancer is not ugly…the dog is sick.  Those dogs in perfect health,  look odd…but not ugly.

The Cresteds that we had were strong and healthy.  They had the tuft of hair on the head, ears, tail, and privates…but they were cute!  They were not missing any teeth, they were quite young as a matter of fact.  So again,  I feel that the dogs they are showing as a competition means, well, that they have to get old and sick before they can compete in this UGLY DOG COMPETITION. 

I liked their skin,  one Crested looked like an pink complexion and their other had brown complexion.  I thought they were like people….they were hilarious…and good spirited!  They loved tons, and tons of affection!

They should do a competition on the world’s best looking Crested!  You know…it would be better than seeing these dogs at their worst state….sickly and lacking legs and eyes.  Who would want people to see them in ill health and have a picture taken at their worst?

Till next blog,

riveroflifelisajoy