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SOMEBODY PLEASE TAKE THE TEMPERATURE OF AMERICA! It looks like the United States has caught OBAMA FEVER!!! HE IS A WINNER!!!!

big-summer-sky-at-dusk.jpgLook,  I am not a politics buff….but one thing I do know…..I heard 1010Wins  RADIO ROAD TO THE WHITE HOUSE,  state  that Hillary  Clinton is considering conceding defeat?!!!!

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 Whaaaaaattt?????!!!!  Impossible says I!  NOt to be believed says I!  Hillary Clinton could not possibly give in so easily? 

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 I was at a job related function yesterday and I heard  a several teachers, and a principal of a school discussing the issue.

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  Some were thinking over the experience issues between Hillary and Obama.  It was interesting to hear.  One person who was black did not seem so impressed with Obama’s experience. 

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 While another person who was also black,  was apparently happy about Obama’s  too close to the White House success in the primaries nationally! 

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 They then compared how Jessie Jackson had made a bid for the White House.  However, they then  considered that Jessie Jackson did not appeal to middle America in his stance on issues or his way of speech or both. 

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 They thought about it and bantered the topic,  but is was obvious who had Obama political fever and who did not. 

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 I sat there for a minute, since I was not directly in the conversation, and I did start to get a little bit in awe of the history taking place before our eyes, and ears! 

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My father was a World War II Veteran….my father cared for his wife and children.  My father brought a house in SpringfieldGardens that had a acre lot and a large bongalo house. 

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My dreams have been realized through the fact that my father dared to dream and dared to step out from his comfort zone!  So  dreamers can be success stories!  Ya know?

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 Mr. Obama,  I will definitely keep you, and Hillary Clinton in my prayers.  This is a momentous moment in time….savor it,  inhale it,  taste it! 

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 It tastes like a green meadow at sunrise, wet with the dew of promise after a  midnight of malstrom storms and thunderous clamor. 

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 Let that clamor and noise be the change of the century!

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  Let Obama and Hillary bring fourth a New Begining for the future of mankind and the world!

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Till next Hillary and Obama blog—

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—-RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY! 

Barak Obama —I’ll have Mine Well Done Thankyou! With the Democratic Push for President growing more intense, backing for Barak OBama from the Kennedy Camp! Wow! That truly IS newsworthy!

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The last time I wrote about Barak Obama I told you that I do not know enough about him to really make a good clean decision on him.  But I am in shock right now.

 The Kennedy Family is standing behind him!???!?!  Wow!  That is admirable….but it also scares me a little! 

 Why?  I am not completely sure as to why the political backing of the Eternal Flame at Arlington that flickers over the grave of one of the Kennedy Presidents,  and the family that has reigned over politics in this country since I was born in 1961– kind of unnerves me but it does. 

 It is not a bad thing,  it is an awe inspiring thing. 

I feel a bit shakey inside when I think of the Kennedy’s placing their political UMP! behind Obama.  They usually do not speak out too much….but when they do…it is powerful, and needs to be considered on all fronts. 

 Also, until this political twist I was unaware that my favorite action flick star, turned governor of California Arnold Swartzenegger (sorry about the spelling)  was a republican, while his Kennedy ancestry wife Maria Shriver was still a staunch democrat.  What must be the conversation over dinner be like?

  Maria Shriver was also present at the backing and speech making campaign for Barak Obama.  The Kennedy Mantel has even been placed on Obama’s Shoulders.   They stated that he is like a Kennedy in his attitude and stance in politics.  

They like him and are standing behind to give him the political push.  If I was undecided before,  now I really do not know how to vote.

  Previously,  I had stated that I knew more about Hillary Clinton than I knew about Barak Obama….whether he is “BLACK OF SKIN” like me or not. 

I have been in my job for about 20 years,  I have not had people who were of my race like me, just because I am the same race as them!  Most people do not like me because of the role I maintain on my job.  So,  race has nothing to do with it for me. 

Politics aside,  Obama was a family background that is not anything like mine.  His father was a native of Africa, and his mother was European…My grandparents and their grandparents were slaves!

  So what am I to tell you are that I have in common in  ancestry with Obama?  Nothing…absolutely nothing. 

But when it comes to politics,  I want to know how he will change my child’s future for the better!  How will my health care improve?

  How will my single parent status improve. 

 How will being a care giver to my mother improve? 

 How about the high price of rent/ mortgage improve?  

 How can attending college become more affordable for myself and my child? 

When will my job receive the much needed economic raises needed to help meet the food bill,  electric bills, gas bills, health care, car insurances,  medication and perscription prices? 

  I heard on 1010 wins “ROAD TO THE WHITE HOUSE UPDATE”  that Obama made a speech in which he promised to” increase minimum wage not once every ten years, but EVERY YEAR!  

Obama even stated that if  “You work in this country you should not be poor!”

  That statement was very powerful, but also frightening! 

 How would increaseing minimum wage yearly affect cost of food in the fast food industry which barely pays its’ workers minimum wage earnings? 

How would rasing the  minimum wage yearly affect home attendant prices for those who need the home attendant? 

 How would raising minimum wage affect the industries that make their living from  the backs of LOW WAGE EARNERS WHO CANNOT AFFORD A DENTAL PLAN/MEDICAL PLAN with the low wages that they earn in MCDonalds,  Wendys,or  BurgerKing?

  What about the dry  cleaning industry? 

 What about the malls, and stores like Macys? 

 How will constantly increasing the minimum wage impact on such industries

 Will clothes, shoes,  and the basic neccesities begin to raise beyond normal levels, in order to accomplish the “everyone one starting off at the same fair rate?” 

 Is it possible that what ever  the wage increase is….the economy will have to make adjustments in order to find the money to PAY THE WAGE INCREASES TO THE WORKERS!  

 Look,  I want atleast a an unrealistic raise of atleast $30, 000.00 per year.  Will I get it?  Of course not.  But if you give me at least a 30% increase in raise I would see a difference in my  paycheck,  more than that small 3% raise I keep getting every two or three years. 

 That three percent raise adds up to about $5.00 more per year.  That gets eaten up by all the life insurance policies, and taxes I pay direct before I even receive my paycheck net. 

 So if Mr. Obama can raise the rate of income for all American’s  who will ultimately pay the cost and price of this increase? 

Do you think the price will cover it?  I highly doubt it.  The rich are the ones paying us poor folk these small wages for fast food, high paced jobs, and they want a surplus….they do not just want to make a small profit either. 

Who would buy a McDonalds’s regular cheese burger for let’s say $3.00 in order to assist in rasing the rate of the minimum wage for the McDonald’s employee behind the cash register? 

I wonder

 What do you think? All I know is that –that hamburger better be good……I LIKE MINE WELL DONE THANKYOU!

***Reflections on the Hot Race for President in the Democratic Party  by

RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY!

A WOMAN’S WORK IS NEVER, EVER DONE! My thoughts on working overtime and its affects on family, and health–riveroflifelisajoy

duckies at playMost Americans work a stated 40 hour work week.  But then this thing called overtime kicks in.  UGH!   and double ugh!

  I am of victim of this overtime dilemma.  You work it either because you have to, or because you need the money.  But what happens when you come on and the house is a wreck,  your feet hurt,  your back hurts,  and all you want to do is lay down.

  Problem with laying down for a few minutes you suddenly find youself being awaken by the hunger of the family and the second job now is upon you. 

Your family needs your attention…..NOW!  yOU PULL your aching bones from the bed and feel dizzy, weak and  tired.  You make dinner and then your child tells you he needs construction paper from the store. 

 You suddently find yourself at a 24 hour STOP AND SHOP SUPERMARKET,  looking at multicolored paper and wishing you were back in your bed

 The clock is spinning fast now.  You realize that 4a.m. and 5 a.m. are just around the corner.  Inside you want to cry….you wonder will you make it to retirement? 

 You wonder if you will make it to June at this point.  You get back home and then you look around the house and then begin to plan out the house cleaning. 

But wait….you go lay down….just for a minute…and suddenly it is 5 30 a.m.!  You are half an hour from being late.  YOu jump up from bed and then rush to prepare breakfast for the family.  

Take your shower and then run out the door to start this hard work force routine again. 

But atleast today is Friday….but oh,  You have to work 4hours and 30 minutes on Saturday morning!  Ugh!…Don’t think about it right now.  Just go one minute,  and one day at a time. 

 Focus….for you know the old saying….a “woman’s work is never done—she works from sun to sun!”

Lets analyize the workforce and how it affects the woman and her health….and the need to earn income vs.  being a mother and care giver. 

   Entry will be made later today…….It is 5am and I have got to get ready for work!  Write to you after my work day is complete! 

Riveroflifelisajoy! ————-

Well,  I ‘m back.

Work as a definition is something you have to do, and/or want to do  in order to get paid, or complete some type of task that benefits yourself or others.   Work is good….work is healthy.

  But too much of anything is never good.  As a woman I was persmitted to take a year of maternity leave after I gave birth to my only child.  However, due to conditions beyond my control  I have been a single parent for nearly 10 years to date. 

 I do not like it and it can be a double job at times.  (especially since my child has been having varied serious medical problems.)  I bear my burdens completely solo.  I care for my mother also. 

Thus I am sandwiched between two different circumstances—or rather three.  I am thankful for the job….but not having assistance at home makes it difficult to say the least.  For example,  one day I had to work overtime on my job. 

But when I arrived home,  I heard banging in the house.  My mother,  was calling my child.  He was in the basement.  He had been boiling an egg and fell asleep.  He burnt the pot he was cooking in and was sleeping in the smokey house.

  My mother was upstairs and could not walk down to the basement because of the arthritisis in her knees.  That conditon had the potentical to be devastating to say the least.  So I tried to stop doing overtime.  However,  I am unable to at this time. 

 A standing order is in place for my child not to cook at all unless I am in the house. Tunafish, and peanut butter and jelly are left in place for him to eat when I am not home.  Or–microwave oven also…But even that I do not trust too much either. 

You might ask,  where is your family and friends?  Well, I am not the “Lucy and Ethel” type gal!   Everyone I know has a job….and/career.  There are no stay at home mom’s in my daily life struggles. 

 Money is tight and people do not help out like that without hard green money in their hands.  So,—I do not have people walking in and out of my house.  Therefore,  I do not have assistance. 

 I even had attempted to get my mother a home attendant and VISITING NURSE SERIVCE of   New York resfused her several times in the past two years.

  You just about have to need a hospice before they offer you assistance.

  If  she can bathe herself, and feed herself,  they say that she is not eligable.  CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?

Thus back to my original discussion…..a WOMAN’S work is never done!

What are the society politicians doing to help the single parent,  caregivers of society? 

I get rediculed,  and repremanded on my job for my support of my mother and child.  I am told to make arrangments to have my child taken care of and my mother for that matter. 

But where is the money coming from to foot the bill to help PAY  for these so called arrangements?—-Strange huh?!

THIS WAS ANOTHER INSTALLMENT….BUT HOUSE CLEANING CALLS….!—-

RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY!

My New Year’s Resolution–It’s Gonna Be Great In 2008!!!

LIFE STARTS HERE.jpgNo matter what…I will resolve

to improve my status in life!

I  want to go in the direction of

Peace with my fellow man

I want to develop a clear and

concise plan

I will  move in the direction of harmony with

all.  But will not give up my self-respect

Because if I do,  I have wasted this long,  long up hill

trek.

Will you take my hand,

My fellow man?

Can we together rise,

up toward the heavenly skies to

bring down the fighting across the

globe?

Can we bring down the pain and suffering

in the lives of men,  women, and children?

Can we find ways to stay the course, and

not have to live out our lives full of

remorse?  From good deeds left undone,

from victories left not won?

Can you search deep within,  and see the one true love

of mankind that will give us the answer

and the goal that is about to unfold in the

coming year?

Does every year new have to begin with

Tears?

Can we shout in victory together, all man kind

of  every race, creed and religion? 

All of mankind of all lifestyles, and traditions

Can we this year….of 2008  be ready,  be real,

and prepared to be GREAT?

What say you, my fellowman kind and womankind–Are we up for the challenge to participate in the year 2008!

Come forward, and do not fear,  the end of the 2007 is drawing to an end. 

I hope you will take the challenge and  assist this beautiful world on which we reside to come to a mend and heal from deep inside.

You do not have to believe in the same God as I do. 

Just place your foot, within your shoe and take just

one step forward.

Take another step forward toward your destiny.

There is a purpose for all of us on this globe called earth!

Do not be afraid to see your value,  see your worth!

I will pray for you.  I will pray for myself…

I will pray that the Almighty God above reveal his love to one and all!  That you,  your friends, and family  and I will

receive joy, peace and prosperity in the coming year 2008!

Just do not forget to open the gate for the poor,  the down trodden,  the sick,  and the weak.—

For those who have received much….much is required back to assist those who are yet on the road as pilgrims seeking salvation and peace.

May the God of all—The Alpha and Omega

the Beginning and the End —give you all that you need to succeed in 2008! 

I resolve to be a help and not a hinderance on that road  toward our goals of man-kinds success!

Till next blog

RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY! 

December 26,–Medical Emergency possibly due to the Video Game System! Oh, Why this Now?

LIFE STARTS HERE.jpgMy son Daniel was talking to his grandmother in her room.  I was making her something to eat.  Her room is right behind the kitchen. 

 She said, “Come here, Come here, ” in a too calm voice.  “Come and get him, he does not look well.” 

 I had that chaotic, shaky,  feeling in my gut again.  The same if not worse from last weekend when Daniel got “sick” in his sleep at 5:00 am. 

 Now it was only about 9pm the day after Christmas and I saw him standing and holding his head.  

I rushed to his side and he grabbed hold of my arm.  I steadied him and then I could do nothing but get him to the wall where he could lean. 

I tried to make him lay on my mother’s bed but he could not move his legs.

  He is taller than me ….so I had to be careful that he not fall and hit his head. 

My mother could see his face….she said…Ha, oh…watch out….he is going to throw up!  He threw up all over the floor in my mothers room. 

He closed his eyes and lay limp on my shoulder like a wet rag….I could pick up his arms and there appeared to be no resistance or strength.  I could hear gurgling in his throat. 

 I held his head back and I started talking to him.  Daniel,  Daniel…do you hear Mommy? 

I thought that he would start shaking or something….but then I heard the gurgling again and he threw up again.  He had just eaten a broiled chicken sandwich. 

I was cooking sweet potatoes with sugar and cinnamon on the stove.  But right now I hoped it was not burning because I could not move.

  My mother was asking me if I wanted to put him on the chair.  I said no….it was a wooden kitchen chair.  He needed a secure chair. 

 The dining room and living-room where he had set up “camp” under the Christmas Tree with all of his gifts—especially the Ninetendo WII  were in the living room.

That is what he had been doing for about 2 hours before this episode.  He had gone food shopping with me. 

 We had really gone out to go get his replacement Legend of Zelda Game for the WII because the one he had gotten for Christmas was defective. 

 That was all he could think about for the whole day of Christmas.  So for him…Christmas had really only started two hours ago once he started playing the replacement no defect Legend of Zelda game. 

 So what went wrong NOW???!!!!!  Why was I standing trapped here in my mother’s room…unable to get to the telephone AGAIN???!!! 

 and — holding my son up against the wall while he was throwing up over my shoulder? 

 His arms limp as two dish rags;  he was not talking…  just weak, and vomiting and spitting! 

 My mother,  with all of her age of 78 had worked in Creedmoor Hospital back in the 1960’s  as a attendant….was calm and just asking what she could do to help. 

 She can not walk…due to arthritis.  I started praying and talking to my son.  I sang a hym. 

 I prayed (and)  recited Psalm 23 and waited for him to come back to me and my mother.  My son Daniel spit and threw up again. 

Finally I felt some life come back into his body.  Funny though,  his heart was pounding, and pounding. 

It was a good strong beat!

I talked to him continously and asked him his name, and then he began to talk words…but the words did not make any sense.  He knew his name,  but  when I asked him how old he was he spelled his last name instead. 

 I walked him to the living room and had him to lay down.  He saw me reach for the telephone and then he began to tell me to “Wait, a–wait don’t do that—wait! 

 He does not want to go to the hospital…I told him I have to call for help—he got visibly upset.  He kept looking at the video game he had left on just before he became “sick.” 

 By the time the EMS arrived he was talking regular and making sense. 

 They, the EMS techs explained that the video games and even the computer have 60 shots of light every few seconds and that is why  he is getting sick. 

They checked his blood pressure and other vitals.  He seemed fine. But looked over tired (they said from playing those games.)

 They got clearance for him to see his doctor today and not have to go to the hospital….but with a promise from him to put away the video games and go directly to bed….eat something, drink something but go to sleep immediately! 

UGH!  Lord, help my kid and help all other parents going through this nightmare. 

 My kid was in private school all his life.  I sacrificed my pension to nine years of private school education. 

 Now he is in a college board  highschool  with only 300 kids.  He loves it! 

My son ranks 44 in a thousand kids from the Youth and Tennis of SoutEast Queens.  He just played tennis on Friday,  Saturday and Sunday!  If you saw him he does not look sick…He is quite athletic….

 I am a poor woman…..I can barely put food on the table. 

 I pray that my son’s health improves. 

I hope it is only the video game systems and the 60 shots of light and nothing else.

  He is only 14 and has not yet lived his life. 

I hope this blog gives inspiration to others out there who may be experiencing the same thing. 

I am going to get in touch with a Shakley Food Supplement distributor. My mother gave them to me because of different medical problems when I was just graduating highschool and starting college.

 They really helped.  I had lost track of that food supplement company….but I will actively seek them out now. 

 This is not an advertisement….it is my personal opinion.  I will not give my son anything UNTIL I TALK TO HIS DOCTOR.  —-PLEASE BLOGGERS….DO NOT TAKE ANY TYPE OF VITAMIN OR FOOD SUPPLEMENT UNTIL YOU CONSULT YOUR DOCTOR.  I WILL BE TALKING TO MY SON’S DOCTOR TO DAY ABOUT VITAMINS AND FOOD SUPPLIMENTS…..YOU MUST ALWAYS CONSULT, CONSULT, CONSULT AND GET SECOND AND THIRD AND FOURTH OPINIONS ABOUT YOUR MEDICAL HEALTH AND NEEDS!!!!!! 

 Because I know my son is a picky eater…and he does expend alot of energy to  play tennis and do school work.

  He also is putting alot of energy into the video games. All though the kids appear to be couch potatoes…they are expending energy into concentration. 

That is where the danger appears to lay with the 60 points of light flashing into the eyes and affecting the brain. 

 What to do what to do?  My kid appears to be hooked to the games.  But guess what? 

 The male EMS Tech guy said that he is hooked to the games too! 

Lord save us ALL!!!!

Watch your child and the video games please….. !!!!!!

Take care….till next blog…..

RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY

Cooking CHEAP, HEALTHY, QUICK AND NATURAL THE EASY WAY!—((watch that salt and sugar too!)) January 6, 2008

duckies at play This is a serene picture, that a friend took many years ago.  I will always cherish this picture.  I always believe that a meal should be peaceful, and unrushed.  Tranquil…  so that the meal gets digested properly.  Relax and   enjoy… I have a treat for you.  Quick,  healthy meal ideas from Riveroflifelisajoy!

Often people ask me to cook for school functions.  I do not offer food for those  occasions. 

 Why you might ask?  Well my mother always cooked very, very simply because my father was a diabetic. 

I do not have a special meal that people rave about….you know what I mean….don’t you?

  So I go to my old stand by….Italian Pastry!  I go to Sapiensia’s Excuse the spelling.

My favorite Italian Pastry is Connolly’s!  (spell check )  I love those…especially  when placed in the cake.

  The cake is vanilla with connolly creme inside and white or chocolate frosting.  This cake I like to purchase for family birthdays! 

It is my terrible little treat….once in a while….pssst but don’t tell anybody!!! LOL!!!!  

I also like another pastry called lobster tail!  That is great too.    I also love a certain other little treat  during the summer  the REAL CHOCOLATE CHIP CONNOLLY ICES!  YUMMY!!!! 

 And  all other natural fresh and delicious icey treats.  I love this stuff!  I do not generally buy junk food for my house.  I do not buy chips too much.  My italian pastry treat is about once every 4 or 5 months or so.  I am not a bing  or secret eater type person….Ya know?

But I love juices.  I love GREEN TEA by TURKEY HILL.  I know,  I know….maybe to much sugar right?  Probably so.  So  I have to cut back on the Green Tea….but it is so REFRESHING!

  I also love Welches Grape Juice.  Grape juice is also good for cleaning your blood with the antioxidents as well. 

I was told to go to Flushing Queens to get the REAL GREEN TEA LEAVES in stead of buying the premade stuff.

  Problem…there is difficulty parking and I would like a suggestion of how to locate the place that sells the REAL Green Tea leaves.

LIPTON TEA MIX HAS  a good GREENTEA MIX… —now that is not very sweet at all.  I think you would have to put the whole dry mix into your pitcher to get that over sweet taste. 

Every culture has it’s “staple” foods. 

 For example some cultures use rice,  or pasta as the basic staple of every meal.  some cultures use flavorings that are totally recognizable to that ethnic group.  Well,  I am African American. 

 But I do not know how to cook those culturaly known meals at all!  Suprised?  Don’t be.

  My parents knew and lived cultural diversity before it became the”IN THING”! 

My mother’s best friend lived with my family from the time I was five years old   until I was fourteen.  Irene passed away when I was fourteen. 

  My father was a practical nurse, and my mother was a stay at home wife.

  My mothers’s friend Irene was Irish American.  She had personal issues that she could not resolve so her children stayed with their father and she lived with us. 

 Irene was a wealth of knowledge of the fine arts,  food,  and creativity!  She and my mother would set about to decorate my parents house every six months!

  Irene and my mother with my fathers financial backing opend up a store on Jamacia Avenue in South East Queens called for Antiques and What Nots!  

Irene also worked in the Post Office, so she would contribute to the household and assist my parents with the bills. 

My mother and Irene were like Lucy and Ethel from the “I love Lucy Show”—they always had creative ideas (((back in the 60’s—that’s right! 

 A black woman and a white woman were best friends!— I did learn so much from that diverse family experience that I will always cherish and never forget!)))

 My family was very middle  class because my father kept two practical nursing jobs from the time I was born, until he died from diabeties at the age of 59.

 So I was fortunate enough to have a happy early start in life.  But my mother did not cook…traditional African American food! 

   My mother was raised as a Seventh Day Adventist!  They do not eat P0rkor pork by products!  They are similar to the Jewish belief in that they keep the Sabbath Holy and do not injestany pork at all.

  If you know anything about the south, a lot of meals are cooked using pork.  Vegetables –especially greens.  I never ate greens or collard greens with pork flavoring until I was an adult and attended a party! 

 My mother did not even make macaroni and cheese.  Not even fried Chicken!   I grew up eating the Irish Ham,  steak, chicken,  steamed, or boiled vegetables, and white mashed potatoes!  Funny— huh!

So read my receipes for simple meals….Please do not expect Soul food from me!  But do understand….I am asking around and people are giving me the receipes to make good macaroni and cheese,  or brown sugar kernal corn.  I will tell you how it goes!

Tonights meal:

Fried fish and onions with egg noodles and vegetables!

How to of Riveroflifelisajoy Fried Fish:

Ingredients:

1 egg

1 cup of “America’s Choice Italian Style Bread Crumbs ( Waldbaums Brand)

4 “Captain Bob Whiting Fillets”   (frozen)  cut up two inches  a piece

1 third of the frying pan  filled with America’s Choice Vegetable Oil (Waldbaums  Brand)

1 large onion cut up in 1 inch slices

How to:

First, pour the  cracked open egg (yolk and all) over the cut up fillets.

Mix and cover all of the fish thoroughly.  Then pour the 1 cup of America’s Choice Italian Style Bread Crumbs over the fish and mix well with a fork. 

 All of the fish should be covered in bread crumbs.

After heating up your frying pan on low,  gently place the fish nuggets in the pan and cover with a lid.  Let brown on each side. 

After the fish nuggets have a golden tint place the chopped up onion in with the fish nuggets.  Keep the flame on low a bit longer. 

While this is cooking,  get a sauce pan and bring 2 cups of water to a boil.  Take one cup of  America’s Choice egg   noodles and place in the pan/pot.  Let boil in the water for 5 minutes. 

 Take a bag of frozen mixed America’s Choice vegetables  and pour one cup of vegies in the pot! 

Whala!

In about 10 minutes you have noodles and veggies swirling around each other. 

 After they are completely cooked,  drain and then put in a bowl.

  Pour the America’s Choice Tomato Sauce over the veggies and noodles!

While veggies and noodles are complete—check your fried fish!

The onions should be browning lightly.  The fish can be cooked until crispy! 

Notice….the only salt added to this meal is the salt in the Bread Crumbs which is 430mg!

Also the other salt added to this meal is the Tomato Sauce which is 580mg!

Wow!  That is high for salt isn’t it!

So to decrease your salt intake….You might monitor your salt and look for LOW SALT bread crumbs,  and LOW SALT tomato sauce too. 

I do not add any salt on my own….and I feel that  salt in this meal is way over the limit even for me!

What do you think?

I will keep adding to this blog.

I will let you know of  the next dinner that I create!—Remember Low Budget…does not mean tastless meals!

I have to cook short quick meals…because after a long day at work….my energy is very low.  So I use pasta and vegetables.  I also use alot of brown rice.

  I love salad…which I did not discuss today.  I like fresh green kale or spinarch. 

 I do not buy canned vegetables.. I generally get the quick frozen veggies instead at Waldbaums.  Waldbaums always has a sale—like 10 packages for $10.00!   Great for the single parent on a limited income!  Excellent for life on a shoe string!

 I try to stay with foods that have salt naturally from nature….not additives.

Hope your cooking is cheap, healthy quick and easy!

Till next blog entry…

Riveroflifelisajoy!

What EVER CAN GO WRONG–WHEN YOU LIVE PAY CHECK TO PAY CHECK—WILL GO WRONG! TAKE UP PAINTING AND KEEP COPING THROUGH IT ALL–IT REALLY WORKS!!!

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#1 Flower of Hunger**** by Riveroflifelisajoy

#2 Frustration**** by Riverof lifelisajoy

#3 Chinese Ink and Water Color****by Riveroflifelisajoy

#4  Sun Flower ****by Riveroflifelisajoy

#5 Hunger and Doubt ****by Riveroflifelisajoy

#6 Foliage**** by Riveroflifelisajoy

#7  Chinese Ink and Red water color**** by Riverof lifelisajoy

 I really thought I would have been going to the Poconos,  or atleast SPLISH SPLASH this summer of 2007!  But instead I was stuck at home after work everyday,  and during my vacation. 

It was all based on a series of events that emptied my pocketbook after each pay period from May 23 2007 through September 2007.  It all began with my son’s senior trip from his private Lutheran School. 

 He had attended that school since kindergarten and now was graduating at the age of 14.  The school has nine grades.  It is called Grace Lutheran of Queens Village.  It is an excellent school for academics, and mentoring boys and girls. 

 I will always love and honor that school for its care and concern for my son.  However,  my problems began because of my son’s health.  He had experienced some episodic conditions that would need emergency care if and when they occurred. 

 It was because of this problem that I found myself attending a two day trip to  Washington D.C..  The trip was great!  We went to Beni Hannas Japanese Grill, the Spy Museum,  we observed the Washington Monument from a distance (due to terrorism alert as per our tour guide),  we went inside the Capital Building where all of the congress meets, Lincoln Memorial,  and the Arlington Cemetary and the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier. 

 We walked underground from one building in the capital to another.  I,  of course,  got lost during that activity.  You know, the cell phone died;  I had to ask around and then I and another parent eventually found the bus.

  I, a chaprone, had gotten lost because I always,  always have to use the restroom at the worse time!  So with all of this stated.   I had spent my entire 2nd paycheck of May on this trip!  I had planned to take my  mother with me. 

 I was going to follow the bus route, but my car had begun a serious oil leak and I had to leave the car behind.  My mother cannot climb those steep steps to into the coach bus. 

 So I had to make accomodations for someone to look in on my mom.  The problem was that my son’s school, knowing his medical history and condition was afraid for him to attend that two day trip without me being present.  If he were to get sick on the trip they were concerned about his safety and their liability! 

 All that was well understood by me.  The problem  was that it was not explained to me until May 2007!  My son had already paid for his ticket back in September,  for the $300.00 ticket!  The hotel was the Marriot!  4 Star accomodations!  Great….!  But not great for me who only makes $500.00 every two weeks!

  So at the last moment I could not pay any bills,  I was instead going on a trip!  I love trips….but not Trips on a Shoe String!  I like to decorate on a shoe string …but not go out of state on a trip/vacation on a shoestring.  I literally only had $20.00 between my son and myself for the entire trip! 

Thank God for two male parents who brought lunch on the second day for my son and myself!  My son,  however,  did become ill on the second day to my dismay.  I was in shock!  We were at the Smithsonian Museum (which is a definite place to visit when you get the chance) and my son was throwing up and falling asleep just about everywhere we toured that day. 

 He had a temperature,  and he was having asthma conditions that he was not telling me about at the time.  (He hates doctors and hospitals!)  He just kept asking when are we going home?  I want to go home.

  Finally the bus made it home from Washington D.C. and my son and I made a B-line to North Shore Manhasset Hospital.  NorthShore Manhasset Hospital has  the best pediatric emergency room –especially for asthma, and seziure disorders.  They also have a cable t.v. in each little cubicle –and if you stay unfortunately they even bring video games to their pediatric guests!! 

My son loves that hospital—once he has to go there for medical emergencies.  The doctors are quite thorough too! But my problem was that when I returned from that trip I had zero dollars to my name. 

 The next problem was that my son was graduating and I had to pay the school $2500.00 to complete his fees for graduation and school price for the year end. 

 My son needed a tux for his prom,  and shoes (size 11 1/2), shirt,  pants, tie,  cap and gown for graduation  and his hair done (he gets his braided–I’ll write about that in another blog).

  All of this shot a hole the size of Atlantic Ocean in my pocket book.  Remember I am a single parent,  caregiver to my mom,  and I do not receive childsupport due to the castastrophic disease of my (((missing for nearly 10 years–husband)))—so for me on a $500.00 bi-weekly pay check,  and $1600.00 per month rent,  ((and I pay gas bill, and the electric bill)) —I actually live pay check to pay check. 

 It was a very happy,  sad,  bittersweet time for my son and  my mother and I.

  I could have enjoyed it more it I had enough money to cover my son’s trip to Washington,  pay his school fees,  and buy all of the needed items so that he could enjoy his final days before graduation, and graduation itself! 

 I could not and did not even buy him a “real” graduation present.  Matter of fact…I did not even buy him a birthday gift.  I could not afford it this year!  I felt so bad.  I had waited for my taxes to come in so I could bring his school fees up to date. 

 The next problem after graduation was completed was  my car.  My car was due for inspection in June 30, 2007.  It had a very bad  oil leak–I own a 97 Toyota Camry.  It leaked so bad that I was putting two quarts of oil each time I went to work,  and every night when I returned home from work.

  Pep Boys in Hempstead LongIsland refused to inspect it until I paid them $658.00 for the repair of the oil leak.  I had to leave my car in Pep Boys for an entire month!  I had to pay my utilities,  and I had to pay my $1600.00 rent,  $500. 00  car insurance also had to be renewed. 

I truly do not know how I made it through those months and kept food on the table.  The telephone was cut off several times.

It was a hot,  hot,  mess from June,  July,  August!  I was on pins and needles.

  So I decided to start painting!  I could not go anywhere because I had no car for the whole month of July until I saved up enough money to pay Pep Boys; who was holding my car hostage! 

 So I metrocarded it to work everyday!  That was rough.  I had to walk ten blocks to the closest bus stop every day. 

 When I began painting I was disgusted.  I thought,  as I began to paint– that I had brought that paint set for my son. 

It had a real artist easel,  oil,  acrylics,  and water color paints.  I would come home after my long walk and talk about my day at work;   and talk about my car being held hostage; and wondering if Pep Boys would try to sell it or something. 

 I would feel butterflies in my stomach when I thought about my car.  So I put all of that nervous energy to work on a canvas by painting instead. 

Soon I began to like to paint.  Then I tried to get my son to paint.  My son was the real victim of this summer’s no money blues!  But he began to write songs on the piano!

  So for the summer he discovered his talent in music,  and I did like an old chicken….I scratched on the canvas with a brush and some paints.  I will attempt to upload some of my pictures so you can see what I did. *******************

   I have twenty that I actually did.  The first green themed picture  is called Foliage.  I experimented with the arcrylic.  I dabbed,  and  drew “leaves”,  and just imagined some of the parks I have been to in the summer.  I love it when it is hot outside and the plants seem to drink in the summer sun,  just after 10:00 am and it is a cloudless sky—-thus the title Foliage! 

The second picture  was one in which I had purchased some Chinese Ink from my son’s Scholastic Book Fair at school and it was supposed to be used for drawing the Chinese letters.  So I decided to combine the water color of red and I believe I also used a acrylic red for the dabbled spots on the picture.

I hope this may inspire some of you to take your frustrations out on a canvas.  To be honest with you I actually used typing paper,  because I only had one actual canvas.  On that canvas I drew a mermaid surrounded by sea creatures.  That one was my favorite to draw with colored pencils.  I love the deep ocean animals,  shark,  whale,  Octopus, Squid,  Jelly fish,  amemone,  coral reefs! 

I am a water person by nature.  I love swimming and I love the smell of the ocean.  It just can’t help it.  My mother always took me to Far Rockaway as a child,  and Jones Beach.  I will write about my love of the sea, and beach in another blog.  Just thinking about it makes me feel calm,  relaxed and serene!

I’ll write again soon!  riveroflifelisajoy!

Cakes and Cookies My Aunt Ellen Used to Bake! * Holiday Baking!!

dinner-wit-us-steppinhowards.jpgMy grandparents used to live on Pacific Street in Brooklyn New York when I was born in 1961.  My parents had left Brooklyn before I was born and purchased a home in Queens New York. 

 I remember visiting  my grandparents and my Great Aunt Ellen for the holidays.  Sometimes my father would drive into Brooklyn and pick up my mother’s parents and Aunt Ellen.

They would then spend ThanksGiving with us in Queens.  Aunt Ellen would always have “bags of plaid or green with rolling wheels filled with great smelling cookies,  cakes,  and ingredients to help my mother out with the Thanks Giving Feast! 

It was a wonderful time of togetherness!  I was about 5 or 6 when a picture had been taken of everybody at the table from my mother and father to the rest of the family gathered around for the prayer and the meal at the table.  I always knew that this was supposed to be a special time. 

  They were imigrants from Virginia.  My Great Aunt Ellen was a spinster.  She was a member of a 7th Day Adventist church. 

She was well known for her hand made dolls,  her cooking and her baking!  She would cook for church functions  all the time.  But  she made her living cooking every day for a family of a wealthy  Building Designer named Freidman. 

 My Aunt Ellen lived at the Friedman  house on on Argiel Road 6 days a week. She cared for the two daughters, cleaned the house, and cooked breakfast, lunch and dinner.

  She was a devote 7th Day Adventist so she attended church every Saturday.  She was my favorite person to see when I went to my grandparents home. 

I did not realize how special that apartment was until just now.  Because so many of the things that I love to do are threaded by the love and quiet personality I had observed  of my Aunt Ellen. 

She spoke volumes with her actions by constantly being busy.  She did not preach at you…she was just a quiet loving presence.  She went away every year and baked up state at the Religious Retreats of the 7th Day Adventist. 

When she passed it was a difficult time because she represented a era of my life.  She lived long enough to meet my son after he was born, and she was talking to him and even recognized him and everyone else up until her dying moment. 

Aunt Ellen had passed at the age of 86 years old.  She left behind her hand made dolls and her quiet  love for God and his word.  Her bedroom was filled with Bibles and 7th Day Adventist literature. 

The Freidman daugthers were middle aged women and they cried with great emotion at the wake and funeral.  They stated that she was their second mother and they were in mourning for the dear Ellen.

Ellen’s Cakes*

Yellow Cake with milk Chocolate Frosting: 

I would love to sneak pieces and pieces of cake and eat until my stomach hurt!!! She would make a three layer cake with the frosting between the layers.  I loved to eat the chocolate all by itself! The cake was the bonus.  My son  always asks me why do I love chocolate so much.  I think it truly is a comfort food for me.  It reminds me of Aunt Ellen’s baking —I guess.  She would sometimes put walnuts in the milk chocolate frosting.  Every thing Aunt Ellen did was from scratch!  No Betty Crocker for Aunt Ellen back in the 60’s and 70’s! 

Classic White Cake with Coconut Frosting:

I would enjoy this cake also.  It was light and fluffy, and had a pinapple center.  Again all of her baking was done from scratch.  Sometimes if I arrived on the one day she had off from the Friedman’s home,  I would get to see Aunt Ellen in the midst of baking!  (I have come to realize now, that is why I like to cook, and bake so much–when I have time!) I also love to knit, and sew by hand.  I just do not have the time that I would like to devote to handcrafting!

Lemon Pound Cake:

There was no frosting on this cake….but the lemon was strong and the cake was firm but moist.  I remember savoring the tangy lemony taste with a cup of milk!  I did not like milk back then,  but if Aunt Ellen baked something you would certainly expect to see me with a cup of milk!

Vanilla Drops:

These Vanilla Drop Cookies were hard as a rock!  But once you got them in your mouth you kept eating, and eating till they were all gone!   Aunt Ellen used baking soda, baking powder,  yeast, and all of the traditional ingredients.  Sometimes she would have me sift the flour for her baking.  That was my favorite task when helping her out.  She would chide me, or admonish me to do this or do that, or sit down so I wouldn’t spill anything!   She never patted me on the head, or even kissed my cheek.  She was very quiet and just plodded along her course until she finished one project of baking or another.

Chocolate/ Walnut,  and or Chocolat Chip Cookies:

Yes, I saved the best for  last.  These cookies were the best for me.  I would eat, and eat those cookies until my mother would tell me to stop it!  I would sneak back into the kitchen and look inside this special roasting pot that Aunt Ellen would store her completed cookie projects inside of  wax paper,  foil, and little plastic bags. 

 I just loved to smell the flour and odor of baked goods as I would walk into  that kitchen and take a cookie or two.  I would check the kitchen table for evidence of a new baking project —you know ingredients of walnuts already cracked and waiting in little bags or containers. 

 I would then go across to the window and look out and see the elevated train station with people waiting for their train above Altantic Avenue.  I would go back to the living room with my cookies!

Cakes I attempt to make>>>

Now that Aunt Ellen is gone for some years now,  I still find myself loving home baked goods.  I cannot recreate them from scratch but I go to the supermarket and pick up the boxes of BETTY CROCKER or Duncan Hines Cake mixes!  I will list the group I will be making for this ThanksGiving Weekend:

 Duncan Hines- Moist Deluxe Classic White Cake

****I have premade White Frosting with rainbow sprinkles for the White Cake.

Duncan Hines- Moist Deluxe **Red Velvet Cake

****I will use the premade Ducan Hines White Frosting for the Red Velvet Cake.

Duncan HInes- Moist Deluxe Butter Recipe Golden Cake

****I will use the premade milk chocolate frosting for the Golden Cake.

****Betty Crocker Fudge Brownies

I do not need any frosting on my brownies!

Two more are not cake but something I have discovered that are tasty:

Concord Foods  Apple Crisp-  I purchased this mix in King Kullen,  but I have also purchased it in Waldbaums,  and Pathmark Stores.

All that is needed is simple butter, and Fresh Apples!  You can put icecream on this after it is prepared.  It is great tasting and easy to make too!

Jiffy Corn Muffin Mix-  This is the only mix that comes close to the old fashioned taste of Aunt Ellen’s cooking and her bisquits! 

I truly enjoyed reminiscing with you about my love of Aunt Ellen,  and her special quiet ways.

Enjoy your ThanksGiving Weekend,  and the Special People in your lives!

Gasoline and the Threat from Venezuela!! Here comes that Sudden Fear of $4.00 Gas Price and Above!!! Hold on “its Gonna be a Bumpy Ride!”

FRUSTRATION.jpg (This picture is titled:  “FRUSTRATION” this was painted by me during the summer  of 2007. ) 

 This picture reminds of the continuous struggle of the gasoline prices in the United States today!    Update 12/02/07 –         I feel that the recent gasoline prices are some what stable between $3.19 per gallon for regular and $3.45 per gallon for regular.  I have seen the cheap prices in  Long Island.

  I have seen expensive prices closer to the Long Island Expressway.  I have a gas station right on Jamacia Avenue in Queens Village that  stays between $3.19  and $3.25 so far.  But sometimes I wait to the last minute to get gas and then I end up waisting money and paying $3.45 for gasoline per gallon.  That is bad because I only have $5.00 on me sometimes!  $5.00 per fill up is like putting a 1/2 cup of water into the gas tank!  I am being priced out of car driving! 

 1010 Wins  (Radio News Station)  said it!  On Saturday night,  after I drove all the way to BayTerrace Tennis Bubble and dropped my child off for practice….I got that jetters in my gut AGAIN!

  The Venezuelian Country,  who along with other oil rich countries  holds the keys to alot of ‘OIL’–natural resources gave a threat to the United States. 

 1010 Wins stated that,  correct me if I am wrong,  Dictator Julio Chavez said, ” If the United States attempts any military action on Venezuela,  or Iran  that “OPEC” will continue to INCREASE  the PRICES OF GASOLINE!!!  

“Oh,  Lord,”  I thought,  my stomach is starting that bumble jumble dance.  I have a weak stomach when I feel any type of frustration,  or fear.  Hey look,  I have faith and all that….but I cannot fill my gas tank with Faith,  Dreams,  or Positive Thoughts! 

I need hard cold Green Backs or A Line of Credit!  I do not have a Visa,  MasterCard,  American Express,  or Even a Discover Card ( due to previous loss of husband,  loss of house,  and Banckruptcy!!)

  I have been attempting to pick my life up from the ashes—but this GLOBAL ECONOMY just will not slow down or get together long enough for me to gather my own resources….which are skimpy to say the least. 

 Look,  I know the being black and having a Bell Curve IQ nonsense has affected my life I guess.  But guess what?  The gas station guy does not care what my IQ is!! 

 All he wants to know is how much Gasoline I want to buy?  How much money to I have in my pocket!  The Gasoline Prices I saw this weekend were staggering! 

 I saw the Super price at an EXXON  station for $3.55 per gallon.  So what is the big deal to raise it another .50 cents?  Look,  I am not some famous singer like Beyonce who juants around the world looking beautiful and creating designer  clothes! 

I am a typical 47 year old woman who lives and breathes according to the prices at the supermarket,  gasoline station, Walmart,  Waldbaums, rent etc. 

I have to know how much of the global economy and wars and rumors of wars will affect my everyday life.  This is not a reality TV program—THIS IS REALITY! 

 OPEC is considering raising  the gas prices….that is squeezing my already triple pinched penny that is in my nearly empty pocket book!

  My church helped me with a “Care Basket for ThanksGiving”  but who will donate a “full” tank of gasoline to me?  Nobody! 

So the fear begins to rise in my throat like bile on an empty sour stomach!  My head has begun to get that throbbing sensation right at the temples!  UGH!!!!! This is going to be a LONG,  LONG,  LONG WINTER!!! 

Just tell me,  what are all of the presidential hopefuls’stating this time?  Are they still fighting each other about a five year war that is basically something in the past ( as far as who signed or voted for it?)

  They need to stop the nonsense and come up with solutions to bring this global economy under control before the little people like me,  you know “the not so beautiful, not so famous, just plain Jane,  challenged,  single parent,  BABY BOOMER, elder care giver go under for the last time. 

 How am I to make it?  I don’t get food stamps cause I ‘MAKE TOO MUCH’ (as compared to people who have more than one child) and I don’t get HEAP ASSISTANCE for the same reason. 

I feel like I am on the brink of destruction here.  “Brother can you spare a dime.”  –Soon to be Brother can you lend me the price of  half a tank of gasoline?”  I hope that Obama,  Clinton,  and Ron  come up with some solutions and stop the nit picking over each other’s records!!! 

 What are you going to do to stop this economic assualt on my dollar at the gasoline pump???!!!! 

 They need a reality check!  People like me need help and I need to put my vote behind the person who has the best solution,  and the right direction to take this global issue and make a change for the better. 

 If things do not improve for me financially I do not know where my family will end up. 

First stop for me is to pray. 

Hope everyone will do the same.—or whatever method you use to increase positive outcomes in your lives!

Remember, Gasoline is the STAPLE of US ALL!

What Kids want for the Holidays? (Christmas in my kids case!) and WE WILL BE AT GAMESTOP ON 11/23/07 FRIDAY AT 07:00

My son starts off telling,  and writing,  even doing powerpoint presentations for me about the NINTENDO WII AND  Legend of Zelda games. ********** Update 12/1/07 ********

My  son’s friend Mike told me that He wants $600.00 so that he can buy Xbox 360  and a SideKick!

My son also said that he wants:

 Super Smash Bros. Brawl

, A CLASSIC CONTROLLER,

 Sonic and the Secret Rings,

 Mario and Sonic Olympic Games,

 Super Mario Galaxy,

 Xbox 360,

Halo 3 Smackdown vs. Raw 2008,

 Nintendo ds, Playstation 3,

 Ipod, Jordans,

 NIkes,

 jeans,

designer shirts,

fitted cap,

The Legend of Zelda Phantom Hourglass,

The Legend of Zelda Twilight Princess,

Rip Stick,( two wheeled skate board)

 Music albums,

 speakers for computer,

 Samsung flatscreen tv 50 in.,

 cable tv/ satillite tv.,

helio cell phone,

 vacation in Fernwood Villas,(((Poconos of course!)))

 a ski trip (Poconos Again)–OutDoor World in door water park.

But then my son says its hard to ask for things  because he knows our financial situation.  I will go out tomorrow which a few short hours from now and try to get the WII. 

 He said he will be happy with that one item!  What a great 14 yearold!  You know my son got an A in History?! 

 He is even keeping his grades up in english.  He needs a little help with his math…but nothing too bad. 

I keep in touch with his teachers through the website “teacherease”…What a great Kid!  Another reason to be thankful to the Lord above! 

—So getting back to THE Christmas list!—I am also going to Old Navy—they are giving out a free MP3 for $20.00 spent at 5:00 am on BLACK FRIDAY!  

Everything he wants is extremely expensive!  I feel so bad that I cannot provide gifts for my son in general—forget about Christmas….

My son did not even get a birthday gift this year at all!  I have to pay that rent,  and utilities—

I wish I could give my son the type of Christmas I had when I was a kid!  My Christmas, as a kid was overflowing with so much stuff!!! 

 My father came loaded with toys before,  during,  and after the Holidays.  People from his job liked him so much they would give him gifts for his family. 

Boy,  I was a blessed kid.  I cannot say the same for my child.  One year we did not even have a “real” Christmas tree. 

I had a 1 foot tall fiberoptic tree that I always placed on the dining room table—that year I  used it in a corner of the livingroom.  I stacked up two telephone books and placed an old tree skirt on top of the stacked telephone books. 

It looked nice.  I wanted a tree,  but because it was the last minute there was a shortage of trees that year. I had no money to buy a twenty dollar tree even. 

 There was a dry branch and I asked the man if I could have it and he was such a Scorge that he said I had to pay $10.00 for it. 

 I saw in his face that he would not budge. 

 I said Wow,  on Christmas Eve and all—this man see’s that I am trying to get my son some type of Holiday spirit and he flatly said no.  We survived….but my  heart was broken inside. 

 I had asked the Lord why?  Why? do I have to suffer?  Why did my husband have to leave me alone to raise this child and not provide a beautiful Christmas holiday for him?

  Why?   I cried when my child went to sleep.  He had smiled after he saw me make our little one foot tree into a 3foot tree.  I set about laying out his little gifts.

  He was 10 at the time;  but had played video games since 6years old.  So his gifts were small–but pricey! 

I brought him things that he did not ask for,  and two things he did ask for.  When he woke the next day he was happy that he received the video games he had asked for. 

He hugged me and said thankyou Mommy! 

The worse time of year for me is the Holidays!  I do not get depressed—I just feel like I am not able to provide for my child like I would want to.  I pray all the time to revive my finances. 

This year I am looking for another miracle too.  He wants  that Ninetendo WII.  He needs sneakers for gym.  He wants a fitted baseball cap,  and I want to buy him a decent coat.  If you remember I did get a great bargin on a jacket at the flea market for $5.00. 

But I found that jacket does not have a good collar–it is more of a baseball jacket.  It does not have a hood for the head.  I just ask the Lord to help me to find another extremely bargin.  You see I just paid my $1600.00 rent.  I have to pay my utilities,  and my car insurance—so—what to do?  what to do?  

I do not get child support—never ever!   My husband is gone!  Missing for nearly 10 years!  So I do not get one dime from  him.  My Mom and I share the bills, but the bills are so high that I am always behind or paying less to a bill than I should.

I do not know what tomorrow may bring….but I will pray and believe that the Lord will guide me,  and keep my small family.

  Atleast my church gave me a turkey to cook for ThanksGiving! and the trimmings too.

So to God be the Glory for the things he has done.  I pray for those who have even less than I.   I have got to get ready for work tomorrow.  *****Since this is an updated–edit I will not be going to work tomorrow-*****-I am going to OLD NAVY AND ALSO TO GAME STOP TO SEE IF I CAN EVEN AFFORD THAT WII!  I do not have credit—after I lost my husband,  and my house I lost my credit through bankruptcy.  I cannot affort to have any type of card—so everything I buy is HARD COLD GREEN CASH!!!  AND IF I DO NOT HAVE GREEN CASH….THEN I DO NOT PURCHASE ANYTHING. 

I am so tired,  but I know that the Lord is still there guiding me through all of these trials and tribulations!  Good Night! 

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11/23/07 UPDATE

Okay, Okay, I went Shopping.  I came back and had some more turkey with my family.  I am sleepy now.  But here is what happened with my son.   His wish came ture!  The WII was his wish and we got it for him today!  His face beamed like a sunny day in August!  This is a definite scacrifice.   “Lord have mercy!  I pray the Lord help me with all my other responisbilities!

What kids want for the HOLIDAYS IS FOR THE DREAMS AND WISHES TO COME TRUE!

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2nd update  11/23/07

My son is resting now!  He keeps looking at his WII in the box.  He will not open it until Christmas!  Atleast that is what he states!    On my list of things to get is some pretty heavy duty things…You want to see what I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS?!!!

okay here goes:  I

 want to write a book and finish it completely,  and have it published.  It will be a book on the LIFE OF A BLACK WIDOW! 

I want to get my five songs that I wrote and produced published and song by Christian Professionals.

  I want to pay off all of my debts with the earnings from my music,  and my published book. 

 I want to pay for my son’s education  “lock- stock- and barrel!” 

 I want to get my masters degree in Leadership, of Organizational Management from Nyack College and pay that off completely also pay off my B.S. in Organizational Management in full too! 

I want to regain private home ownership and buy a house on two acres and regain my life as a pet owner again.  (I lost all of that with the loss of my husband). 

 I want to assist Food Pantries,  and aid the poor with educational programs geared to employment. ****That is what I want to do if I made enough money with my music and my writing. 

I would like to have someone most of all read my work and critique it so I know or not if I am wasting my time! 

 I want to be able to perform my vocalizing in jazz,  R&B  and soul with a great piano player every day or atleast once a week. 

I want to have my own music studio in my own home so I can start practicing again like I used to do before my husband got sick. 

 I would like to pay for my son to start and complete his Alto Sax lessons,  and piano lessons.  He is much more talented than I am.  All he needs is lessons! 

I would like to purchase a new computer with HIGHSPEED ETC.

 I would like to take my mother on a trip. 

Well these are some of the things this MOTHER OF A CHILD would like to have for Christmas. 

But for now I will rejoice that I had a turkey for ThanksGiving with sweet potatoes,  and all of the trimmings that I had the strength to cook! 

 I am usually too tired to do it immediately after arriving home but this time I pushed myself to get it done! 

son is full and happy and sleeping….so I can blog to my little heart’s content uninterrupted!  lolololol!!!!  ha ha ha!

I thank the Lord for all of his blessings toward me and mine.  And I wish the best for all of you and your families.  Keep safe!