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Gasoline and the Threat from Venezuela!! Here comes that Sudden Fear of $4.00 Gas Price and Above!!! Hold on “its Gonna be a Bumpy Ride!”

FRUSTRATION.jpg (This picture is titled:  “FRUSTRATION” this was painted by me during the summer  of 2007. ) 

 This picture reminds of the continuous struggle of the gasoline prices in the United States today!    Update 12/02/07 –         I feel that the recent gasoline prices are some what stable between $3.19 per gallon for regular and $3.45 per gallon for regular.  I have seen the cheap prices in  Long Island.

  I have seen expensive prices closer to the Long Island Expressway.  I have a gas station right on Jamacia Avenue in Queens Village that  stays between $3.19  and $3.25 so far.  But sometimes I wait to the last minute to get gas and then I end up waisting money and paying $3.45 for gasoline per gallon.  That is bad because I only have $5.00 on me sometimes!  $5.00 per fill up is like putting a 1/2 cup of water into the gas tank!  I am being priced out of car driving! 

 1010 Wins  (Radio News Station)  said it!  On Saturday night,  after I drove all the way to BayTerrace Tennis Bubble and dropped my child off for practice….I got that jetters in my gut AGAIN!

  The Venezuelian Country,  who along with other oil rich countries  holds the keys to alot of ‘OIL’–natural resources gave a threat to the United States. 

 1010 Wins stated that,  correct me if I am wrong,  Dictator Julio Chavez said, ” If the United States attempts any military action on Venezuela,  or Iran  that “OPEC” will continue to INCREASE  the PRICES OF GASOLINE!!!  

“Oh,  Lord,”  I thought,  my stomach is starting that bumble jumble dance.  I have a weak stomach when I feel any type of frustration,  or fear.  Hey look,  I have faith and all that….but I cannot fill my gas tank with Faith,  Dreams,  or Positive Thoughts! 

I need hard cold Green Backs or A Line of Credit!  I do not have a Visa,  MasterCard,  American Express,  or Even a Discover Card ( due to previous loss of husband,  loss of house,  and Banckruptcy!!)

  I have been attempting to pick my life up from the ashes—but this GLOBAL ECONOMY just will not slow down or get together long enough for me to gather my own resources….which are skimpy to say the least. 

 Look,  I know the being black and having a Bell Curve IQ nonsense has affected my life I guess.  But guess what?  The gas station guy does not care what my IQ is!! 

 All he wants to know is how much Gasoline I want to buy?  How much money to I have in my pocket!  The Gasoline Prices I saw this weekend were staggering! 

 I saw the Super price at an EXXON  station for $3.55 per gallon.  So what is the big deal to raise it another .50 cents?  Look,  I am not some famous singer like Beyonce who juants around the world looking beautiful and creating designer  clothes! 

I am a typical 47 year old woman who lives and breathes according to the prices at the supermarket,  gasoline station, Walmart,  Waldbaums, rent etc. 

I have to know how much of the global economy and wars and rumors of wars will affect my everyday life.  This is not a reality TV program—THIS IS REALITY! 

 OPEC is considering raising  the gas prices….that is squeezing my already triple pinched penny that is in my nearly empty pocket book!

  My church helped me with a “Care Basket for ThanksGiving”  but who will donate a “full” tank of gasoline to me?  Nobody! 

So the fear begins to rise in my throat like bile on an empty sour stomach!  My head has begun to get that throbbing sensation right at the temples!  UGH!!!!! This is going to be a LONG,  LONG,  LONG WINTER!!! 

Just tell me,  what are all of the presidential hopefuls’stating this time?  Are they still fighting each other about a five year war that is basically something in the past ( as far as who signed or voted for it?)

  They need to stop the nonsense and come up with solutions to bring this global economy under control before the little people like me,  you know “the not so beautiful, not so famous, just plain Jane,  challenged,  single parent,  BABY BOOMER, elder care giver go under for the last time. 

 How am I to make it?  I don’t get food stamps cause I ‘MAKE TOO MUCH’ (as compared to people who have more than one child) and I don’t get HEAP ASSISTANCE for the same reason. 

I feel like I am on the brink of destruction here.  “Brother can you spare a dime.”  –Soon to be Brother can you lend me the price of  half a tank of gasoline?”  I hope that Obama,  Clinton,  and Ron  come up with some solutions and stop the nit picking over each other’s records!!! 

 What are you going to do to stop this economic assualt on my dollar at the gasoline pump???!!!! 

 They need a reality check!  People like me need help and I need to put my vote behind the person who has the best solution,  and the right direction to take this global issue and make a change for the better. 

 If things do not improve for me financially I do not know where my family will end up. 

First stop for me is to pray. 

Hope everyone will do the same.—or whatever method you use to increase positive outcomes in your lives!

Remember, Gasoline is the STAPLE of US ALL!

What Kids want for the Holidays? (Christmas in my kids case!) and WE WILL BE AT GAMESTOP ON 11/23/07 FRIDAY AT 07:00

My son starts off telling,  and writing,  even doing powerpoint presentations for me about the NINTENDO WII AND  Legend of Zelda games. ********** Update 12/1/07 ********

My  son’s friend Mike told me that He wants $600.00 so that he can buy Xbox 360  and a SideKick!

My son also said that he wants:

 Super Smash Bros. Brawl

, A CLASSIC CONTROLLER,

 Sonic and the Secret Rings,

 Mario and Sonic Olympic Games,

 Super Mario Galaxy,

 Xbox 360,

Halo 3 Smackdown vs. Raw 2008,

 Nintendo ds, Playstation 3,

 Ipod, Jordans,

 NIkes,

 jeans,

designer shirts,

fitted cap,

The Legend of Zelda Phantom Hourglass,

The Legend of Zelda Twilight Princess,

Rip Stick,( two wheeled skate board)

 Music albums,

 speakers for computer,

 Samsung flatscreen tv 50 in.,

 cable tv/ satillite tv.,

helio cell phone,

 vacation in Fernwood Villas,(((Poconos of course!)))

 a ski trip (Poconos Again)–OutDoor World in door water park.

But then my son says its hard to ask for things  because he knows our financial situation.  I will go out tomorrow which a few short hours from now and try to get the WII. 

 He said he will be happy with that one item!  What a great 14 yearold!  You know my son got an A in History?! 

 He is even keeping his grades up in english.  He needs a little help with his math…but nothing too bad. 

I keep in touch with his teachers through the website “teacherease”…What a great Kid!  Another reason to be thankful to the Lord above! 

—So getting back to THE Christmas list!—I am also going to Old Navy—they are giving out a free MP3 for $20.00 spent at 5:00 am on BLACK FRIDAY!  

Everything he wants is extremely expensive!  I feel so bad that I cannot provide gifts for my son in general—forget about Christmas….

My son did not even get a birthday gift this year at all!  I have to pay that rent,  and utilities—

I wish I could give my son the type of Christmas I had when I was a kid!  My Christmas, as a kid was overflowing with so much stuff!!! 

 My father came loaded with toys before,  during,  and after the Holidays.  People from his job liked him so much they would give him gifts for his family. 

Boy,  I was a blessed kid.  I cannot say the same for my child.  One year we did not even have a “real” Christmas tree. 

I had a 1 foot tall fiberoptic tree that I always placed on the dining room table—that year I  used it in a corner of the livingroom.  I stacked up two telephone books and placed an old tree skirt on top of the stacked telephone books. 

It looked nice.  I wanted a tree,  but because it was the last minute there was a shortage of trees that year. I had no money to buy a twenty dollar tree even. 

 There was a dry branch and I asked the man if I could have it and he was such a Scorge that he said I had to pay $10.00 for it. 

 I saw in his face that he would not budge. 

 I said Wow,  on Christmas Eve and all—this man see’s that I am trying to get my son some type of Holiday spirit and he flatly said no.  We survived….but my  heart was broken inside. 

 I had asked the Lord why?  Why? do I have to suffer?  Why did my husband have to leave me alone to raise this child and not provide a beautiful Christmas holiday for him?

  Why?   I cried when my child went to sleep.  He had smiled after he saw me make our little one foot tree into a 3foot tree.  I set about laying out his little gifts.

  He was 10 at the time;  but had played video games since 6years old.  So his gifts were small–but pricey! 

I brought him things that he did not ask for,  and two things he did ask for.  When he woke the next day he was happy that he received the video games he had asked for. 

He hugged me and said thankyou Mommy! 

The worse time of year for me is the Holidays!  I do not get depressed—I just feel like I am not able to provide for my child like I would want to.  I pray all the time to revive my finances. 

This year I am looking for another miracle too.  He wants  that Ninetendo WII.  He needs sneakers for gym.  He wants a fitted baseball cap,  and I want to buy him a decent coat.  If you remember I did get a great bargin on a jacket at the flea market for $5.00. 

But I found that jacket does not have a good collar–it is more of a baseball jacket.  It does not have a hood for the head.  I just ask the Lord to help me to find another extremely bargin.  You see I just paid my $1600.00 rent.  I have to pay my utilities,  and my car insurance—so—what to do?  what to do?  

I do not get child support—never ever!   My husband is gone!  Missing for nearly 10 years!  So I do not get one dime from  him.  My Mom and I share the bills, but the bills are so high that I am always behind or paying less to a bill than I should.

I do not know what tomorrow may bring….but I will pray and believe that the Lord will guide me,  and keep my small family.

  Atleast my church gave me a turkey to cook for ThanksGiving! and the trimmings too.

So to God be the Glory for the things he has done.  I pray for those who have even less than I.   I have got to get ready for work tomorrow.  *****Since this is an updated–edit I will not be going to work tomorrow-*****-I am going to OLD NAVY AND ALSO TO GAME STOP TO SEE IF I CAN EVEN AFFORD THAT WII!  I do not have credit—after I lost my husband,  and my house I lost my credit through bankruptcy.  I cannot affort to have any type of card—so everything I buy is HARD COLD GREEN CASH!!!  AND IF I DO NOT HAVE GREEN CASH….THEN I DO NOT PURCHASE ANYTHING. 

I am so tired,  but I know that the Lord is still there guiding me through all of these trials and tribulations!  Good Night! 

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11/23/07 UPDATE

Okay, Okay, I went Shopping.  I came back and had some more turkey with my family.  I am sleepy now.  But here is what happened with my son.   His wish came ture!  The WII was his wish and we got it for him today!  His face beamed like a sunny day in August!  This is a definite scacrifice.   “Lord have mercy!  I pray the Lord help me with all my other responisbilities!

What kids want for the HOLIDAYS IS FOR THE DREAMS AND WISHES TO COME TRUE!

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2nd update  11/23/07

My son is resting now!  He keeps looking at his WII in the box.  He will not open it until Christmas!  Atleast that is what he states!    On my list of things to get is some pretty heavy duty things…You want to see what I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS?!!!

okay here goes:  I

 want to write a book and finish it completely,  and have it published.  It will be a book on the LIFE OF A BLACK WIDOW! 

I want to get my five songs that I wrote and produced published and song by Christian Professionals.

  I want to pay off all of my debts with the earnings from my music,  and my published book. 

 I want to pay for my son’s education  “lock- stock- and barrel!” 

 I want to get my masters degree in Leadership, of Organizational Management from Nyack College and pay that off completely also pay off my B.S. in Organizational Management in full too! 

I want to regain private home ownership and buy a house on two acres and regain my life as a pet owner again.  (I lost all of that with the loss of my husband). 

 I want to assist Food Pantries,  and aid the poor with educational programs geared to employment. ****That is what I want to do if I made enough money with my music and my writing. 

I would like to have someone most of all read my work and critique it so I know or not if I am wasting my time! 

 I want to be able to perform my vocalizing in jazz,  R&B  and soul with a great piano player every day or atleast once a week. 

I want to have my own music studio in my own home so I can start practicing again like I used to do before my husband got sick. 

 I would like to pay for my son to start and complete his Alto Sax lessons,  and piano lessons.  He is much more talented than I am.  All he needs is lessons! 

I would like to purchase a new computer with HIGHSPEED ETC.

 I would like to take my mother on a trip. 

Well these are some of the things this MOTHER OF A CHILD would like to have for Christmas. 

But for now I will rejoice that I had a turkey for ThanksGiving with sweet potatoes,  and all of the trimmings that I had the strength to cook! 

 I am usually too tired to do it immediately after arriving home but this time I pushed myself to get it done! 

son is full and happy and sleeping….so I can blog to my little heart’s content uninterrupted!  lolololol!!!!  ha ha ha!

I thank the Lord for all of his blessings toward me and mine.  And I wish the best for all of you and your families.  Keep safe!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! GOBBLE! GOBBLE! GRACE IS MINE!11/23/07 UPDATE!

I have to give thanks today!! 

For the Lord truly has looked my way.

My life so drawn from strife so long

That I was blessed today,  by someone

other  -far away!

Gobble,  Gobble,  Grace is Mine!

I would not have thought this would happen

to me,  not any time.

I have to say Happy ThanksGiving!  ThanksGiving is mine!

I want to share a miracle with you.  The Lord has given me  a basket for the holidays.  I thought I would not be able to feed my little family the traditional meal. 

  The past few months have been difficult.  I have had to go to the food pantry and eat whatever they offered.  They gave alot of brown rice and dried beans. 

 Beans are an excellent source of  protein.  But they take so long to cook!  Sometimes we did not have even butter or oil to add to the food. 

 But we survived and we are here today to offer THANKS GIVING TO THE LORD!!!!   

 I want to encourage all of  my fellow bloggers to be of good cheer–no matter what your circumstances that there is one above us all. 

 My good fortune I truly believe is based on the prayers of others for my family,  the good deeds of others toward my family,  and  my learning to be silent sometimes,  and other times to be humble.

  It is not always easy to be humble in the face of a difficult job,  or  frustrating situations in your job or personal life.  But I must inspire you today to not give up. 

There is a purpose to all of our lives.  Many times we lose loved ones along the road of life.  Other times we fall out of companionships and feel as though we are alone  in the world. 

 I have found that my faith in a higher power has seemed to brought people to my life that serve a positve purpose in my life. 

Thank the Lord!   Without the Lord I could not/ would not make it!  He keeps me and my family!

  Have a Great Thanks Giving with your friends, and loved ones!

 ((( So basically it as be as so helpful 2 give m3 da food i needed 2 haEve this thanksgiving dinner. Thank the Lord!!! )))That previous stuff is texting by my son! ***

 He  so happy to have a big 16 pound turkey to eat.  I am defrosting right now. 

I love to cook.  I love  to bake bread,  sweet potatoes, and all of the trimings.  It takes me a long time ….but  I love it.

  It sure beats the fo0d pantry!!!!!  Thanks be to God!  I have canned vegetables, and even stove top stuffing!!!!! I am baking RED VELET Duncan Heines Cup Cakes with white frosting!

  I will bake some brownies in the next few days too!  But the most tasty treat after that dinner is the Concord Apple Crisp!  As soon as you finish it,  it melts in your mouth!  It tastes great with icecream within the first half and an hour! 

 Pick it up in any regular  grocery store.  Get some Macintosh Apples and cut up about 7 or 8 and then lay in a 8′ by 10′  pan and cook until the concord crumbs seep into the apples. 

It is just like the apple without the entire pie crust!  Yes,  truly a blessed ThanksGiving Day indeed!!!!

 I am so happy that my church thought of  my little family.—-I will continue to pray for my church and the kind people there.  God bless everyone who contributed!!!

“BLESS THE LORD!!!  OH, MY SOUL!!!  AND ALL THAT IS WITHIN ME BLESS HIS HOLY NAME!!!!”

JUST TO ADD A LITTLE BIT MORE===I COOKED MY TURKEY LATE BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS TIRED….SO AS MY FAMILY TRADITION GOES—NOT BY CHOICE—MORE BY MY HUMAN WEAKNESS—IT IS JUST NOW STILL QUITE HOT—AND MY SON AND I ARE GOING TO RUN OUT TO SEE WHAT THIS BLACK FRIDAY THING IS ALL ABOUT.  I DO NOT HAVE MUCH MONEY–BUT MY SON GOT AND A IN AMERICAN HISTORY, AND MAINTAINS A PRETTY STRONG B AVERAGE IN ALL OF HIS SUBJECTS….SO I TRY TO STRETCH A DOLLAR OR TWO IN HIS DIRECTION.  THANK THE LORD FOR HIS GRACE TOWARD MY SON.—I WILL CHECK IN LATER WITH AN UPDATE OF MY EXPERIENCE AT BLACK FRIDAY—I AM GOING TO OLD NAVY AND GAMESTOP!!!!  TALK TO YOU SOON!

RIVEROFLIFELISAJOY!!!

Barak OBAMA —Who is Barak Obama? I am black like him—but I know Hillary better it seems.

Can I share this with you?  My little confession?  It is not really a secret, but I am a bit confused by this

.  When I first heard the name Barak Obama I thought,” That sounds interesting!  It has a nice ring to it!”  Then I heard about and saw television discussions about his book about his life as a child and being bi-racial. 

 I might have even looked at the book at the Barnes and Noble Book Store too.  I love to read about personal life experiences, and problems that people over come.  But I still did not connect this nice sounding name to a presidential candidate!   I live in New York City!  

I have watched Saturday Night Live for most of my adult life.  I have been a New Yorker all of my life.  I remember when Hillary Clinton stood beside  Ex-President Bill Clinton when he went through his personal and public issues with a severe indescertion ( to say the least). 

 But what has Mr. Obama done?  Where was he  all of these years that I was watching Ex-President Bill Clinton play his saxophone,  and run the country with his very intelligent wife by his side(no matter what)? 

Life is strange.  I had a situation similiar to Hillary with my husband and it was a difficult time in my life and my marriage.  I stood by my husband’s side. 

I still up hold his name and character for his son and previous acquaintences I run in to from time to time.  Does Hillary’s personal battles indicate that she will make a great president?  Not not nessesarily—but she did show self control under extreme pressure. 

 Humiliation can be a hard, hard road to walk –especially when it is about a “very private,  very intimate matter” that has been splashed all over the news papers!   Especially when it involves your private life with your spouse! 

 I saw a Hillary that would not bend or budge to public outcry.  I saw her husband strengthened by Hillary’s resolve and committment! 

 But what have I seen of  the man with the nice name who is black like me?  I have to honestly say nothing. 

 I have no real reason to see him as a presidential candidate any more than Ron Paul.  I know absolutely nothing about Ron Paul either. 

 And what I do know about Rudolph Guliani makes me angry!  So how do I make my final choice on a president? 

Listen,  there is too much at stake.  The world,  the global economy is in an uproar. 

The GASOLINE PRICES ARE PROMISING TO GO UP!!!!  And what is worse is that the United States  Dollar is declining in value….which means my dollars do not spend like they use to. 

Do you think that I am so shallow that I would place my vote in the direction of   the attitude of: “Oh,  that guy is black (or mixed race)  let me cast my vote in that direction so that we can get ONE OF US IN THE WHITE HOUSE.

  I am rather conservative and yet I also have moments in which I am quite Liberal.  But as I stated early—THERE IS TOO MUCH AT STAkE! 

I do not want another war!  My son is fourteen.  I do not want him being sent to another war because someone reacted!!! 

Reactionary behavior can not be tolerated in the condition that the world is in. 

I have a perfect example of what I mean.  Did you ever see those medical mysteries/ miracles shows on Discovery Channel – in which a baby was born with the delicate heart beating strongly but on the outside of the babies chest cavity? 

 Did you see how the doctors  gently,  ever so gently urge that little beautiful heart back into its rightful, perfect place? 

 If it is not done gently,  carefully,  thoughtfully that new born babe would surely not survive. 

Don’t you want to see this world survive? 

 The natural resources are disappearing,  polar bears are dying,  the possible “global warming”  make take away from the future of your children and mine.

  So what to do?  What to do?  The HEART OF THE WORLD—STARTING WITH AMERICA  must be urged gently back into place.  The heart of Iraq must be urged gently back into place. 

I am not stating that Barak Obama is not capable of doing it. 

I just don’t know why I know more about Al Sharpton than I do about Barak Obama!  

 Yes,  he has been quietly working in whatever state he is from.  

 know Oprah gave him a gala $2000.00 per plate fund rasing dinner….But what are the promises he is making?  Attacking Hillary is not telling me—Ms.  Black Q Public—what  Mr.  Barak Obama will do if we get another  911 attack! 

  Despite the fact that people do not like it…..Hillary will have the common ground of being in the White House as the first Lady before.  She knows the protocol. 

 I do not believe that she will force us into another war.  Yes she might have flip flopped—but  I might have done the same.

  The conditions in this world can not be fortold.  This is not a game of chances…..when you deal with diplomacy it might be for keeps—-it might set off a change reaction that we will not know what hit us!!! 

 I want a person in the presidential office that is not afraid to address issues head on.  I  want a person in office who will take the time to think out a diplomatic option before dropping military like medication on a problem in a foreign land —which of course could come back to bite us later on!

  Some other issues are the need for health care.   I will always thank President  Bill Clinton for the FAMILY LEAVE ACT LAW!   Due to the medical problems in my little family,  I have  had to use that.  FAMILY LEAVE ACT SAVED MY JOB!!!!  

 I  do not know Mr.  Obama is all I am saying.

  He is  on the attack against Hillary.  Sometimes that is a good strategy—but is that what I will see if he was elected to office? 

 Will he attack foreign diplomacy instead of making peace?  Or will he allow certain problems to grow out of control and then react?  

I believe a thoughtful,  steady hand is what is needed for the next president of the United States.

  This is great.  great Super Power of the world.  We feed the masses of  hungry,  and save so many from inhumane conditions. 

 Our country is  a place to help the disadvantaged,  and I want to see that continue. 

I would hope Mr.  Obama could show me more of who he is and what he truly stands for. 

 What  are his concerns for black males,  and gang issues in America?

 Will Mr. Obama set aside money for building better educational programs instead of more jails? 

 Will Mr. Obama look toward saving our nearly defunct Social Security?  I am now 47 years old…..what is going to happen to me when I turn 65 or 70.  Does Mr. Obama have any ideas about that?  

I hope I could hear more about the hopes and dreams for this country than the attacks on one another from the presidential candidates in the next few weeks and months.

GASOLINE PRICE IS GOING UP TO $4.00 PER GALLON—I HAVE TO STOP DRIVING TO WORK!!! HELLO METROCARD!!!12/10/07 update

I am updating this to tell you I recently I purchased gasoline for $3.25  for regular gas!  This is bad—but still moving up higher!

***** HELLO METROCARD—GOOD BY WARM CAR,  107.5  Steve Harvey, or 97.1 Ms. Jones in the Mornin”,  or cranky Ed Lover Radio Show. 

I have to kiss my early morning driving life good bye! I cannot afford to drive to work anymore.  I did overtime tonight and had zero gallons in my car.   I went to a Mobile Gas Station and the Gasoline is now ****$3.29**** per gallon!!!! ???? 

This is a moment of prayer—please exuse me….Oh,  you can join in if you like—-

Dear Lord,

Please,  help me,  help this world.  Lord help my finances.  Lord please stop the wars,  and the man’s inhumanity to man— It is getting more difficult as the days go by. Help us Lord… the world needs an answer.

Thank you

I had to pray just now because on Saturday the gasoline price was $3.14 at one gas station and then across the street at another gas station it was $3.19.  I asked the gas station attendant why it was more expensive  across the street,  the  attendant told me that they get this “phone call”  and they are told to raise the price up higher.  He told me that he was just about to raise it from $3.14 up to $ 3.16.  He was just a few pennies cheaper than the gas station across  the street.  I said,  “Oh,  no.”  

 Deep forboding fear began to slide up my throat, into my ears, and my head.  I began to feel  very uneasy,  kind of like when the doctor is holding your test results in his hands and has a grim look on his face. 

 I began to feel  a sickening weakness in the pit of my stomach.  I suddenly felt hungry and tired at the same time.  I felt a wash  of  quiet chaos sweep over me.  Kind of like a silent movie of a hurricane  with the trees blowing and being tossed without sound to acompany it. 

Lord help me.  I have been running to those gas stations trying to pay the already high gasoline price.  And now the gas as of tonight at 930p.m.  is $3.29 and climbing! 

The Mobile Gas Station man sitting behind the cash register was a pleasant man of middle eastern decent.  He smiled and was compassionate.  He spoke with a thick accent….but  I understood every word he said.  He said He had just got the “phone call” to raise the price!   Oh my!!!  I asked him how high did he think it will go….He told me that it will go  up to atleast $4.00 or more by next week. 

That sickening feeling began to take over again.  I felt like I was dreaming and everything was going  slow and fast at the same time;  kind of like a nightmare. 

I had to venture one more question—to increase my misery just a little bit more—-I said, “Why is this happening?  Is this because of the war?  He said, “They will keep raising it.—-bad economy—bad ecomony here.”  I said, “Why?”,  realizing that this was bringing me into a thought of how my love of driving would soon to be changed to love of  bus riding within the next few weeks.

I told the Gas cashier man to give me ten dollars….it do not even reach the 3/4 tank level.  I saw myself leaving at 5am and  walking ten blocks with my unlimited metro card to the bus stop in the pitch black of the early morning.  I have no choice.  I am scared to be out that early—but I cannot afford nearly a hundred dollars $100.00 to fill my tank either!!

So I have to pray—I start work at 7 am in the morning!!! 

Heating bill will go up also—said this Sueth Sayer of the Mobile Gas Station!   I have a high bill still hanging on from last year.  Oh,  Lord—help us all!

Dear Elected Officials—

What is to become of our economy?  Subprime lending—especially in the Black and Latino Communities—as if we didn’t know—but were powerless to do anything about it because we all want that American Dream—(To be a home owner,  with a two car garage and two children and one dog family fantasy!!!

—Now the gasoline  prices for both or one car is challenging our safety,  and welfare!   The fuel  for heating the houses and buildings,  hospitals, and schools and office buildings shopping malls and factories (if there are any left in this country)  is on the rise.

  Which means commerce is going to suffer.   Corporations, and food stores are going to raise food prices,  medical bills,  taxes in order to maintain the fuel that runs this  country. 

 With out gasoline the buses cannot run.  Even though some of the buses are electrical they are not all electrical. 

What to do? —What to do?!

There must be a change coming! 

I am truly going to pray extra prayers tonight—I have to prepare to take the bus at 5am—There is no other way. 

 I have got to get to work.  I must get to work.  I will get to work. 

 I just pray and go forward.  My car will sit and wait for the weekend or nights that I know I have to work late….but I will not be able to afford the gas on a daily  basis. 

 I need a full tank to make it worth my while to drive.  It would be stupid to put just five dollars in the car everyday.  Thank God my son gets a full fare paid metrocard—

Where are the elected Officials?  What are they going to do?

I will continue to pray—because that $4.00 and some change gasoline hike might be coming next week.  I hope the Mass Transit does not go up…..cause I just got a 3% raise—is that enough to carry this new global economy?  I think not!!!

11/27/07 update

I purchased gasoline at a Mobile station on Sunrise Highway for 3.25 per gallon of regular but super was 3.85!!! so the regular was cheaper but super is on the rise!!—-that metro card is looking good.  I will up date later on this week!—check out my recent blog on Mr. Chavez and his threat to the United States about increasing the price of OIL and Gasoline!

We are Cold and We are Hungry!!!

HUNGER AND DOUBT.jpgI am Cold and I am Hungry!!!!  I can’t take it any more!!!  Last week after I paid my rent of $1600.00 my child said what are we going to eat?  

 I looked around the house and he did too….Ole  Mama in da Hood’s Cupboard was bare chile!!!  What to do?  What to do?  —Suddenly it hit me. 

 The “free food” places my mother used to frequent before she had her stroke.  I used to get angry at her for getting the canned food,  and bags of rice, and spagetti (uncooked) and also bags of dry beans.  I thought and even told her—You do not need that stuff —you have a good job at the Post Office.  

 I am not the best cook so I had No idea of what to do with a bag of dried beans.  You see, my husband  had been a Corrections Officer before his castastrophic illness that took him away from my son and I.  So when my husband had been with us,  we would shop for food and spend atleast $300.00 per food shopping session. 

 But now—for nine years…it is catch as catch can—Meaning do the best you can, pray for the Lord to increase a $50.00 food purchase to equal a $300.00 and stretch it as far as two weeks or more!   As my earlier blog on hunger discussed…”I am not eligible because the Welfare deparment only helps people who have more than one child and make less than $38,00.00 per year.  They do not care about your debt to income ratio. 

 They do not care about your net income—they do not care that you pay $1600.00 per month for a three bedroom for your mother, yourself, and your child.  They do not care about the life insurance policy that you have to maintain since your husband has left nothin for his son, and there is no child suuport.  —So what do you do when you have barely any heat in the house becuase you cannot afford to pay the heating bill and cannot afford to pay the food bill after it is all said and done?!

Mother’s are always right!!!  Get to the Free Food places—it is in your community—ask around at the churches….Don’t despair—I just had forgotten during the summer so we really suffered until a loan from my nearly empty pension  came in.  We did not got to any amusement parks, or any type of recreation.  All I did was create paintings to keep myself positive. 

 I would tell my son” Ca mon’ John lets do some art work!!!  Maybe it will make us rich one day!!!  My son is 14 and does not believe in Santa Claus any more—so he just patted me on my head and said yes Mommy,  I love you—I will just draw one picture—but I do not like to paint!   My mother said,  I don’t want to paint I don’t feel like doing that, if you do not mind. ”

I love my family—they have suffered and cried with me for the loss of my husband and  suffered with each other when we take ill,  and during the summer during my vacation we suffered together without food—until it hit me that I could go back to the free food places—no matter how humiliating it can  be. 

 But guess what—-when you have food like the beans I have come to learn how to cook…on the table with some white rice—IT IS BETTER THAN NOTHING ON THE STOVE OR PLATE AT ALL!!!  —So get up off of that computer and check your local churches for the Food Pantry—those who are hungry—God Bless and let me know if you get good results!—Meanwhile we still need an answer about the heat crisis in America!!! 

I think we should all blog, or write or call our local and Washington elected officals about the Oil and Gas Heat crisis!   What type of Christmas and Chanuka is this for our kids?  Hunger and Cold?  The rules of Heap are too strick,  and the prices are too high.  How do you expect me to even afford to purchas holiday gifts from the retailers—-I AM GOING BACK TO THE FLEA MARKET—GOOD BYE MARSHALLS,  GOOD BYE MACY’S,  GOOD BYE WALMART,  AND GOOD BYE COSTCOS!!!  How can I buy jewelry,  coats,  jackets,  shoes,  boots,  cameras,  etc., etc., when I cannot even put food on the table. 

If something is not done not there will empty stores and empty stores means the down fall of the Gross National Product and the loss of business as we know it in America.  I AM MS.  JOHN Q PUBLIC—-I CAN NOT SHOP RETAIL ANY MORE—I DO NOT OWN A CREDIT CARD EITHER—-

Give me some ideas on how to save our economy please—or better yet how to feed,  clothe and put heat on in my abode for my family.

Thanks!  riveroflifelisajoy

GASOLINE AND OIL PRICES OUT OF CONTROL—-I’M FREEZING!!!! WHERE IS THE HEAT?!!!

FRUSTRATION.jpgI AM FREEZING!!!  MY MOTHER IS FREEZING!!!  MY CHILD IS FREEZING!!!   I HAVE NO MONEY TO BUY GAS FOR MY CAR!!! 

What will become of my  Thanks Giving and  Christmas this year?  All of my energy and thoughts are about my freezing fingers while I am sitting here writing this blog!!! 

 I live in a house—I control the heat—but I am a single parent and care giver to my mother!!!!

What on earth is wrong with our economy?  What is wrong with the oil and gas companies ? 

 The problem is that the gas bill is still haunting me from last year 2006!!! 

 I have struggles man!!!  This is a brutal situation!!!  

 When I was a kid my mother did not have to suffer like this!  My mother owned her own house.  My mother always had a way of getting assistance.    

 How do the local politcians and  law makers think that  John Q Public—or Ms. Q Public is going to  survive? 

  They tell you to prepare an “Emergency Preparedness Kit”!!! 

Ha!!! Ha!!! Ha!!!  What do I do when there is not enough heat—-build a camp fire? 

 I can’t put the heat up too high —they just told us that oil and gas  are going to be a flat rate $200.00 or  more!!! 

 I picture them finding me frozen to the keyboard and staring blankly—then they will locate my family—one by one in their respective favorite locations in the house

—-frozen because there was no money to pay the high Gas bill —and as the great Gas utitlity likes to do—our heat was cut off!!!! 

 This is such a scary time that I am not sure what to do!!!   I went to KeySpan Gas Company and you know what they told me last year?!!!  They said that even if you own house—you are not allowed to earn more than $38,000.00 per year and have only one kid!!!!  What?!!!!   So I need to go make a BABY—at the age of 47 years old—so that I can make the quota for this stupid  HEAP REGULATION? 

  Most of my income goes to life insurance–,  for my untimely -or timely death  (probably due to freezing at this keyboard!!!)  So if heap refuses to help me—What am I to do?  

 They even told me I need to go get another job!!!???  I already work 40 hours a week!!!  My mother needs me home—My teenager needs me home—-

I am a single parent BABY BOOMER —who will  probably NOT LIVE LONG ENOUGH IN THIS FREEZING HOUSE IN ORDER TO USE  the soon NONEXISTENT SOCIAL SECURITY!!!! 

—-HOW ABOUT THIS BABY BOOMER TAKING A LOAN ON THAT DWINDLING SOCIAL SECURITY SO I CAN PAY FOR GAS IN MY CAR AND PAY OFF LAST YEARS GAS BILL????

  Are there any law makers that care about single parent BABY BOOMERS WHO ARE CARE GIVERS TO THEIR ELDERLY PARENTS!?!?!?!    

 The politicians ask for my vote—but they soon forget me when they eat dinner at Ophra’s  in  California and around the  $2000.00  a PLATE TABLE  with THE  BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE that wear Dolce and Gabanna whatevers!!!!  AND  SUMMER IN THE HAMPTONS AND BEYOND!!!!  

 Hey!!!—I guess the Devil REALLY does wear Prada!!!!

—Where is the Heat?!!!!   Where is the $2.00 Gasoline price of yesteryear?!!!  Should we go back to the “BLACK LUNG”—Coal?—Oh, that’s right—the natural resources are dwindling too,  right?!—

  The Non-elected  and Elected Officials  do not seem to hear my humble cry!!!!—-Bloggers out there…..Do you feel  what I am blogging today?  Please tell me if I am wrong for complaining about the high cost of  Oil,  Heating Gas,  or Gasoline!!!

—-I need to get to work—I need a car in case somebody in the family gets ill.

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 Dear Elected Officials,

  What can be done for the BABY Boomers who are stuck between the rules of our system that will not give a single parent caregiver financial asistance to decrease the debt to income ratio of the heat level in my humble abode— because of a ridculous  yearly income that Donald Trump and Ophra would laugh at!!!!!

Any assistance in my thought processes on this topic will be greatly appreciated!!!!!

riveroflifeslisajoy!!!